My show tonight is at 10pm EST. I'm going to lift on my Smith Machine and do a workout show. Something different for a change. I was suppose to call my brother today but didn't. I really don't like going over to his house. He's always being stupid about something and Raquel is mad at him a lot of the time. I would be to and I don't blame her at all. He is going to get what he deserves one day. You just don't go around hurting everyone in your life that is suppose to mean something to you. He asked me once if I were going to have kids and I said no. He then stated that I would be alone at the end of my life and he wouldn't want that for himself. Kids have nothing to do with weather your alone or not. If you treat people right I think your more likely not to be alone at all. He's the one that will end up alone. Your spouse or at least the person your with is suppose to be your best friend. If going around lying and cheating on a best friend is what he thinks a friend is for, then he's got a long hard road ahead. I don't like to be around it. I feel as if it puts tention on me when i'm there. My dad was stupid like that. Going around trying to be his own man and never really feeling for anyone else. I never did see my Mom Cry when he died. She may have. They had a long hard marriage. My Mom was the best through it all though. Well, sure she could have been better at things in our lives but a man and Father like he was would make any women in the universe struggle. At least she was solid and always there for us. I just hope my brother would look in the mirror and open his eyes. Is it realy worth it, to fuck around all your life and wait until the end of it to make amends and love anything?