Ariel has a show tomorrow and friday afternoon. Check the schedule, I posted them tonight.

Jeff hired a massuse for me, It was a guy to. I think he was pretty hung since I did see a buldge in his pants as he gave me that massage. I know it, I'm a sex phein. Sometime a big dick is ALL I think about! Just take me like it's your last day on earth. Fuck me breathless.;)

Ok, I just left my 20's behind. Yes, it was my birthday and I turned the next chapter. Thanks to those who sent me birthday wishes. The icecream cake that we bought was absolutly fabulous! Really weird to see the 30 on the cake! How odd that we don't feel older but yet the years tick by so fast. I'm happy and wanted to post this little poem someone sent.





Taking time to smell the flowers,

Counting the joys instead of hours,

Delighting in the simplest things,

Letting all your thoughts have wings,

Feeling peaceful deep inside,

Facing everything in stride,

Balancing both work and play,

Learning all along the way,

Moving toward a dream or goal,

Nurturing your heart and soul,

Showing others that you care,

Finding beauty everywhere,

Understanding true success,

Choosing love and happiness

Sharing with a special friend,

Enjoying all that life can send!





from the writings of Emily Matthews

I talked to my friend from school "Bambi" on MSN Messenger last night. She was a little busy on the phone then went to bed. I hope she gets on again soon! Another day of workingout, feeding horses, taking a nap and working on this computer. After my workout I was exhaused and had to take a nap. I have a show tomorrow night and we will have some fun! Maybe I can get you to take off all those restricting cloths.

I have been hitting the gym twice a day. I also started taking care of the horses for a friend in the AM and so have to get up early to do that. Besides doing web design and computer work I've been waiting on the new home to be finished. We close July 12th. I get Nico next week! He is barley weaned and I'm worried that he's going to colic on the trip so if she (the breeder) is concerened I do hope she lets me know so she will keep him with his mama a little longer. I've been so turn on it's driving me to distraction. I have an online show Friday at 10pm EST (7pm PT), say hi at least. Take a little time out of that busy schedule and relax.

Oh, oh, oh. I fogot to say. My besttttt friend from jr high/high school is visiting, yippee. For some reason I was going to put it in here when she told me but I got side tracked with email! Yipee, Bambi is comming and I will be here to see her! . God, that girl was a trip in school. I use to spend the night with her but only remember playing board games (the dice) and using Noxema, lol. Tennagers. Not sure but seems like some of those memories kinda got scramblem on my hard drive.:)Shit! Why can't i remember some stuff! I am not that old! Oh fuck! That reminds me. My birthday is comming up and oh booo. This is the first time I will have seen her since 10th Grade! I better stop cussing and screaming before eveyone thinks i have a bad mouth.:)I do at times but only with you all!:)Whoever that may be. And only in here since it is MY diary.

I've been doing my shows and going to the gym. Makes me feel ALIVE. I had a pap smear yesterday, I really don't like those. Only reason I go is because you HAVE to, to get a prescription for the birth control. The girl I was boarding my horse with here called and asked if I could take care of her horses next week. So I'll be doing that for a few days while she is out of town. Not much else but the usual. I have a show tonight at 10pm EST (7pm PT). Join me online and have some fun!

I got fed up last night and had to go subscribe to the gym for an extra month till I move. I can't stand not working out! Makes me feel like I can feel the adapose tissue building up under my skin.:) Yea, FAT. I did 45 minutes on the stepper and also did bis and tris today. I think I'll work back and shoulders tomorrow. I do have an Online show tomorrow night at 8pm EST. Then saturday at 10PM EST. I had a few people ask if Im still going to have my site because I'm moving. Well yes I sure am! Just because I move don't mean I won't have internet access and my cams up.:) I am even bringing my laptop with me to my hotel and my voyeur cam will be on and you can see me there. Isn't the internet just grand? What the hell would we do without it anyway? I would feel like all this education missed out on. Everything I do is on here. Shopping, reasearch (everything), work, chat. Life would really be boring without this computer. I even found both my Horses online. Use to be you could only see things local. Now you can see a horse all the way around the world and buy it if you like, online. Of course that would cost a lot extra and all but that isn't my point.

Begging of July i"ll have my voyeur cams back up. Can't wait to get started on setting everything up! I did my show last night and will be posting the Video on Demand of it today, in the members area.

This weeks schedule was posted Sunday night. I have three shows during the week and Ariel has a couple comming up. Check the schedule on top of the main members page. We should be getting the walk through date with our house today. Not much happening. My gym membership expired today so now I'll have to get up and go jogging in the morning. I need to find a good gym around where my new home will be.

I have a show in an hour. Cum online and say hi to me.

I just returned from Phoenix and I did get some photo's of me and Queen! Here is me and Queen on June 9th, Photo. Here is Photo 2. Photo 3.

Ariel got back from Vacation the other day and she had a show today and also has one Sunday and Monday. Check the schedule for the shows. It's on my main schedule.

Ok, just finished my show and I am encoding it right now to put it on video on Demand. So if you did happen to miss tonights show it will be up around 9pm PST (midnight EST)..

I've been watching the Funeral of Ronald Regan in Washington today. Always so sad when someone dies. I don't think there is really quit anything a person can say to someone who has just lost one they love. No words could do. Not really something any of us can prevent anyway. As hard as we might try. I didn't do hardly anything today except clean and computer work. I did go by the store and get a few things. I can't eat sweets lately without getting really bad dizzy. So I am cutting that and eating a lot healthier (I have been for the last few weeks anyway). When I eat healthy I don't feel so..... awful.

I'm just being impatient while I wait to move. I called a transport place and they are picking up Nico on June 30!!! Gosh, I can't wait to see him. Last time I seen him he was a month old. I have a show tomorrow night (Wednesday)at 10pm EST (7pm PT). I'll exercise Nude and all that good stuff. I was on cloud nine earlier after I talked to the breeder of Nico and the transport people. At least I feel like it's getting close.

My show tonight was really good. You should have been there, "tisk, tisk". At least it felt good to me.:) I fuck that big black dildo like a man was fucking me from behind. I also done some nude weight lifting. I will have this weeks schedule up tonight.

I can barley walk tonight. I did cardio on the stepper at the gym for 30 minutes then I did a nude workout for my show tonight online. I am not usually this sore but that tells me how long I've put off doing legs. I've been talking with one of my Best Friends from School jr High and high school. Her name is Bambi. Yes, that is her real name. You know I remember asking her that when I first meet her. Me, her and April became really good Friends when we moved to FT. Polk, LA back in 89 or was that 88, i think it was 89. Anyway, it's good to know she hasn't really changed all that much. She still her self from when we were 13. Oh bummer, my birthday is this month. God, I'm going to be saying goodbye to my 20's forever, never again to see them. Well thank god I have friends I'm in contact with who are growing older to!

I have a show tomorrow evening. Take a look at the schedule at the top of the main members page. I'll do a nude workout and chat with you all. So be there.:)