Merry Christmas and Happy New year!! I just love some of those Nude photo's you guys have been sending me in email!! Darn, to bad your not around to have a show with me. I've been so busy today. Get the Car Serviced, take care of critters, try to clean house in between running into town. Now computer work before I can get back to cleaning this messy house! I hate cleaning but I can't stand it dirty either. Didn't I just do this last week?!

I have my show schedule posted for this week now. Wednesday and Friday at 9pm EST.. Cleaning my house today. Anyone want to be my maid?

Since I got quiet a few emails about my Saturday show being a bad time for a lot of you I went ahead and scheduled it for Sunday at 6pm EST. I hope that is a better time and day.

I have a show tomorrow (Saturday) at 6pm EST, so cum! I have really been fantasizing about having a nice big cock pounding my pussy so hard that my orgasms drench and slick my channel so much that we can hear the wet sound of his dick thrusting in and out. My god!

Man this has been a busy week, between dressage lessons, working my horses and getting for my new frisian stallion to arrive I have been busy. I am having to get the gym in late in the evening.

I am in Long Beach california tonight, will be back home in the morning, not really my kind of city. I like San diego better I think.

I'm very bad for not writing in here since Thanksgiving! Between the updating on the site, newsletters sent out, email, horse, house work, oh, I'm tired just thinking of it.

Happy Thanksgiving! I all ready did a tiny weinie bit of christmas shoping online.. I don't think I'm going to get much this year. We are planning a trip to Europ at the beginning of the year. I will have an online show this weekend! So keep a look at the schedule.
xoxo

Well thanksgiving is almost here, then its time for christmas shopping.... I hate christmas shopping, no one ever tells me what they want so I have to guess, makes everything so much more difficult :(

Went jogging again this morning, I have been trying to do a 3 mile run every morning at about 7am, maybe in a couple of week I will increase it to 5 miles, we will have to see.

I've lost another 3 pounds, I'm so thrilled! I haven't posted in awhile. I have been so determined to lose 15 pounds!! So I'm working on it and the site, horse, dogs, home.... Can I go on? Actually my Mom has been cleaning a lot. It's nice to have her around to do it but I don't want her to think she has to. If she wants to be lazy she can be.:) Anyway, I think living with us is making her a little sour toward me. She has my brother not talking to me so I can imagine what she tells him when visiting.. She was acting Very strange when she left with him today.. Gets me wondering what is wrong with everyone?... She does not do well with living with anyone. She takes a lot of things we've said in a wrong way and always thinks things are directed negativly (they are not of course), I will try not to be so helpfull. Gets me a little fustrated and stressed. When my brother picked her up today I actually felt relief....:0... I didn't think I'd ever feel that with her.

I finally started feeling a bit better today. Maybe by tomorrow I'll be able to go on my POWERWALKS again! I don't think i lost anything since I've been sick and not eating as well nor exercising. I'll be posting a show for me for this comming weekend!

man I feel like shit!!!!
I am getting sick, I think I caught a cold or something from my brother, I should stick a boot in his ass like I did when we were teenagers!!!!
I am hoping I get better soon, I have dressage lessons tomorrow morning, I hope I can go.
someone come and make me something so I feel better.............

There are day's like today that i don't think it could get any worse about having my Mom live here. She is the type to get mad and never talk to you about it and so you never resolve any issues. How fustrating! So she is wanting to find a place of her own and I am so overwelmed with it all that I don't give a flying leap. So she is going to find a place of her very own now.

I drank way to much at my brother wedding reception on Saturday night. So Sunday I laid in bed most of the day with a hangover. I felt like hell. Lost of fun the night before though. I'm steadly losing weight. I feel it comming off and have been working out at least 3 days a week, try for 4 most of the time. I'll have this weekends show schedule posted tomorrow night.

I've lost five pounds! Wedding tomorrow.

My diet is going well. I allready lost a bit of weight. I let myself gain this year and I need to lose it now. The diet I'm on is the best I've ever had. It lets me eat fruit and stuff like that. Very good stuff on it. I'm still working on Melisadoing shows. I am talking with a guy who lives here in Arizona and he has a very nice big cock. Makes me drool. Maybe at the beginning of the new year I'll have him on here and give him a lap dance if he agrees. Something enticing and sexy to get you guys all blue and rock solid.

I love this diet. I can eat and still feel sane at the end of the day. I bought an mp3 player and fm tuner for my long walks in the morning. I've been working with Melisa Detwiller setting her up so she can do shows. I'll have to let you all know when that is accomplished! I forgot about the time change tonight! Sorry. Messed up my schedule on that one.

I started eating healthy and even consulted with a good nutrition specialist for a healthy meal plan that I"ll start following. It's not a bb diet. Just a healthy living kind. Get my fat cut down. Still taking my walks and now eating a lot better.

I've started going on these 2-3 mile power walks in the morning. Wakes me up like nothing else! Then I go for a short Half mile at night with my Mom. Tomorrow I'll go on the walk then ride my horse. I'm determined to do something more healthy. Because with the gym so far away I don't seem to bet going as much as I'd like! I"ll have another show this sunday. Same time. As soon as Ariel email's me her schedule I'll post it also.

my chat/show is in half and hour.. Cum!

I was going to chat on Tuesday but a realtor showed up and right before I was going to sit down to chat! errrr.... So I think I'll just have it friday night (which is tomorrow!). Make me have a cow this weeks going so fast. I've got to go get fitted for my dress tomorrow. The wedding. Trying to diet. Try is the word for now. Since when it gets busy I have no time for makeing a healthy meal! So tomorrow night around lets say 11pm est I'll sit down to shoot the shit. Maybe a little earlier..

Ariel has a show tomorrow then I'll have one next Saturday (trying to have one every Saturday).. Don't forget about the others girls i have on the site doing shows. Sometimes people forget to look at all the other stuff.

I posted my show for Saturday. Say hi to me! Love it when I get to say hi to old friends, chat buddies, whatever you want to call it. Time to catch up. I've been so very turned on. Those fantasies Terry wrote and very good. I'm working out and took a walk tonight. Trying to get ready for my brothers wedding. Arn't weddings suppose to be an exciting time? Then why do I dread going to it and feel as if it's all going to be for not!? Can I say what I really think (I could be wrong and die with my foot stuck in my mouth!), I really don't think my brother is the marrying type and it's just not going to last. Although if she puts up with his shit then I should buy her a trophy!! Good idea for a gift. Yea! I'm going to buy her a trophy for even wanting to marry him. I'm not sure it should be for the strongest willed female on the planet or the number one shit taker in the world. Then again maybe she will dish it right back out to him. That would be a nice girl. Just throw it right back at em. Ok, I'll get off my soap box, I'm not perfect either!.

What a busy weekend. I did get the chance to go riding with a friend in the mornings. Seems like week did a lot anyway. I had to take my Mom around to some stores. I will have another Fantasy up from terry! He wrote one called double trouble this time. Ariel and I. It will be up in the fantasy section later. I went to the gym today and did the stepper then lifted some weights. Beside's that and trying to find a nice looking amateur bodybuilder girl to model for me (photo's) not much happening. Did I mention I pay good!?:)

hey! I had a great time in L.A.. Went to Hollywood and stayed at the Sheraton at Universal Studio's. We rented a limo and when we were going down hollywood blvd some guys were saying something at a stoplight and I peeked out of the moon roof. Flashed them some tit since it was safe and they were not in a vehicle. oh how fun that was. I get full of it sometimes.

I just got done posting a new Fantasy, a Member wrote for me. He's a very good writer. He Should be published!:) Anyway, he is supposed to write one for Ariel so maybe he'll send that one to...? I just ordered an eliptical Stair climber so I can workout here at home on it. That is my favorite cardio machine. I have been going to the gym but it's just so far it takes up to much of my day. Eating pasta doen't help at all! I get to go to Universal Studio's this week, then I'll be having an online show over the weekend sometime. I haven't posted my show yet, I'll do that on Friday. It's cooling down here in the desert, "Thank God!!"..
On another Note. My Mom and I have been to the mall 3 times and each time we spent a minimum of 4 hours. We went for her not me. She didn't buy one thing till I made her! I am not one to spend hours upon hours in a store. I thought I'd die of foot rot we stode so long. If you think you have a women that can't make up her mind you have not meet my Mom.

Oh boy, I know I have been neglecting my diary a little bit but I have been so busy. The gym I go to is about an hour drive from my house (what I get for having horse property) so that takes about 3-4 hours out of my day automatically, but thats the price you pay for looking good huh :)

A few days ago I took my horse to his show and he got reserve grand champion, made me so proud of him. I have been wanting to go to L.A but the fires down there have me kinda leary of going, maybe this week I will make it, we will see.

Today started off a nice and sunny Sunday. We went to the store for Grocery's and to the PetSmart store for dog food. Came home and feed the horses since it was 11:35am or so. While I was out at the barn I heard someone skid then and impact of some kind. I looked across the road and there was a lot of dust from a truck who went off the road and rolled. Second time in two week I seen someone skid off that road! This one was bad though.. So I start running to my house to get the phone and get on the line with 911. While i am talking to emergency dispatch i go across the road to tell them how bad anyone is hurt. There was a 15 year old girl who got ejected from the truck. She had a terrible head injury with quit a bit of blood comming from her head and ear, it also looked as her back might have been broken since she was at an odd angle lying there. The boy who was her brother didn't have any marks and was trying to get her to respond to him. After a moment or two she came to and started to scream. I yelled and told them to not try and hold her down or put anykind of pressure on her body. She was attempting to get up and they said to tell her to not move. So after I hung up I squated down by the girl and tried calming her and told her not to move and that help was on it's way. I think she was in shock and just keep crying for her dad. The police officer showed up first then the boy's father. Finally the paramedics then the emt helicopters. That put a damper on the day for everyone. Puts a little perspective in your life and how fast it can be whiped out. I saved the number on my phone so I can give her parents a call next week and see if she is ok. I've been thinking of her all day now. I did go riding my horse tonight since I fell off yesterday and need to put more training in. I received this in email this evening so I thought it would suit for now. It's just a little Quote of thankfullness.

I am Thankful :
FOR THE WIFE WHO SAYS IT'S HOT DOGS TONIGHT, BECAUSE SHE IS HOME WITH ME, AND NOT OUT WITH SOMEONE ELSE.
FOR THE HUSBAND WHO IS ON THE SOFA BEING A COUCH POTATO, BECAUSE HE IS HOME WITH ME AND NOT OUT AT THE BARS.
FOR THE TEENAGER WHO IS COMPLAINING ABOUT DOING DISHES BECAUSE IT MEANS SHE IS AT HOME, NOT ON THE STREETS.
FOR THE TAXES I PAY BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM EMPLOYED.
FOR THE MESS TO CLEAN AFTER A PARTY BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN SURROUNDED BY FRIENDS.
FOR THE CLOTHES THAT FIT A LITTLE TOO SNUG BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE ENOUGH TO EAT.
FOR MY SHADOW THAT WATCHES ME WORK BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM OUT IN THE SUNSHINE
FOR A LAWN THAT NEEDS MOWING,WINDOWS THAT NEED CLEANING, AND GUTTERS THAT NEED FIXING BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE A HOME. FOR ALL THE COMPLAINING I HEAR ABOUT THE GOVERNMENT BECAUSE IT MEANS WE HAVE FREEDOM OF SPEECH.. FOR THE PARKING SPOT I FIND AT THE FAR END OF THE PARKING LOT BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM CAPABLE OF WALKING AND I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH TRANSPORTATION. FOR MY HUGE HEATING BILL BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM WARM. FOR T HE LADY BEHIND ME IN CHURCH WHO SINGS OFF KEY BECAUSE IT MEANS I CAN HEAR.
FOR THE PILE OF LAUNDRY AND IRONING BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE CLOTHES TO WEAR.
FOR WEARINESS AND ACHING MUSCLES AT THE END OF THE DAY BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN CAPABLE OF WORKING HARD.
FOR THE ALARM THAT GOES OFF IN THE EARLY MORNING HOURS BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM ALIVE.
AND FINALLY, FOR TOO MUCH E-MAIL BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE FRIENDS WHO ARE THINKING OF ME.
SEND THIS TO SOMEONE YOU CARE ABOUT.
I JUST DID.
Live well, Laugh often, & Love with all of your heart!

My Mom is staying with me and cooking some good home cooked meals. Not good for the wastline but great for the taste buds. Anyway, I posted some new video's on the site and also if you click on the fantasy's over there ont he left you will see a new fantasy posted by one of my fans, that man sure can write good. Hot and horny.

I've been working Goliath almost every morning now. Except for Wed and Thurs since he got his hoves shoed. I show him on Sept 26th so i'm getting him in shape for that. I have got to start eating better again myself. Life is so busy at times! Bla.. So eating takes a back seat. I refuse to dedicate life to everything me, me, me. Like giving to Animals and Family is the best things that makes me feel more whole as a person. Because in this world of the Self centered there has to be the few the proud the Non Self Centered. I like to observe people and all I see is a world of (IT'S ME, WHAT ABOUT ME, THAT'S ME, I'M MR/MRS ME, HOW ABOUT ME, NOT HER/HIM BUT ME!). Lordy, get a clue. Well, what about the rest of them. Whoever, whatever. I know what got me on this issue. My brother. It's all about him. He gets mad at anything because it's not what HE wants. Well tough.
Will he ever get real? I am sad to say I really don't think so. Sad that.
Besides that I am happy, healthy and working hard on the site. Put up some new photo's of Melissa the Bodybuilder who got tenth at the usa's. I'll be on chating later tonight!

Well the end to a very busy month is finally here. Mom is all moved and I took her out to a small local bar for some drinks and kereokee (is that how its spelled), what a time we had. I wore a small tank top and some tight fitting blue jeans, its amazing how much attention you can get from guys when your just wearing jeans :)

IT's the end of the month and I've been very busy with sending out Newsletters for Melisa's updates and updating the website with her content. I am also helping my Mom Move from Kentucky and that has taken a lot of my time. Next week all will be back to normal. No more moving stuff. We hauled away three truck fulls of junk and took it to the trash facility. It's amazes me how much trash and junk people collect over the years. Little pack rat.:)

Oh my. I had a very embarrasing moment that I turned into a bit of a funny episode today. I had a tank top on that has a shelf bra in it. But the tank is very flimsy and thin and the self bra somehow just pushes my tits just right to show off a little much at times. I was walking out of a store and some lady (how very rude of her!) just about yells, "Her tits are hanging out!". Her husband is walking right along beside her staring and didn't say anything. Next thing I know she elbows the guy right in the gut then looks at me like I just commited murder! So I just laughed and laughed all the way to my car. Then I really started laughing because it became to funny, once I got away with my life.. Oh boy, poor man... When he gets home....

My Mom finally sold her house, she don't close till the end of the month. I've been looking for a home for her for the last week. The housing market is insane right now! The prices here have just skyrocketed since we moved here. I'll have a show this weekend and will post Ariels as soon as she gives me her schedule..

Eww, bugs. I just came from the barn and the bugs!!!!!! I can feel them crawling on me and it might just be my imagination! I'll have to take a shower now. I almost always chat at night so don't leave the chat room to soon. Sometime I'm doing somthing and you leave right before I say hi! Gosh...

Rain! We have some rain! Seems like everyone else was getting rain except my area the whole week. We finally got some. Cooled it off a bit to.. Trying to decide what I should do for my next online show.? I need to change it up and do something different.

July is comming to an end and hopefully the heat with it. Lets keep our fingers crossed. I went on a trail ride at 6am this morning. Came home took a short nap then cleaned the house up a bit. I had an online show at 5pm EST (2pm PST "my time") My brother came over to visit for a half hour or so around 7:45 pst. Seemed like he wanted to ask something and never did. I wonder if he needed to borrow again.? Gosh, I hope not. I have to put my foot down sometime. There are times he sure makes me feel like I could kick myself. Talked with my Mom last night and she got an offer on her home. Not what she wanted so she probably won't sell yet. Out in the boondocks the property value don't appreciate as much as it does in or near the city's. I think she is a little scared of change. The move and all. I'll be there for her and I told her so.
On another note. My biceps are pumped today! Good workout tonight. So come and give me that massage again!:)

I just had Melisa Dettwiller do exclusive photo's and video for my website, she is Ms. Louisiana and is at the usa in Las Vegas right now. She won the Louisiana State Bodybuilding Show and earned the title Ms. Louisiana 2005! I should have the photo's and video up in a couple days. She's a Very beautiful girl, muscular and in fantastic Shape. I'll also post a tease photo in here. Yes, she will make you grovel.:)

Lets see. Hmmm. It's not only Hot in Arizona it's humid to. I take a shower in the am and by Noon I need another. But the horses need worked. To bad it's not melting inches off me. Feels like it should though! Oh I'm so hot who wants to cool me down? A big bucket of cool water thrown on me with my white tee-shirt on. I'll make sure there is no bra on.:) Ariel is back from her vacation and is doing shows on the weekend also. Hitting the gym tomorrow.

Comon Feel the Noise! Girls Rock your boys! Lets go wild, wild, wild! It's Friday. Do you know where your partner is?! He's right here in my bedroom! Ok, maybe not but...:) Someone come on over and give me a lower back massage. Oh yea... ooooohhhhhh.

My goal for this month is to drop 8 pounds and lean down and tone up a bit! I've been working on the site and trying to get things done. I have a girl who is a bodybuilder that may be starting shows. We'll see not sure when she can start yet.

I pumped some weights today and the burn!!! Who wants to give me a rub down now that my arms are all tight and throbing? What a day! Now I got to go do some cleaning. I had a show yesterday and used a toy. I really have to go out and find a real man to do me for a show. Those toys sure get a little plastic.:)

I haven't had much to talk about lately. Not into writing it down anyway. I haven't talked to my mom for a while. Tried calling her today but she was working. I've been going on trail rides in the evenings with Goliath or Queenie (My Horses). Meet a new friend to ride with. She's a really nice women who is my age and lives a few doors down. I have a show Saturday at 5pm EST (2pm PST).

Well the London Terrorist attack. What to say? Don't worry it's not personal they hate EVERYONE. From America to London probably all the way around the world they will go. Whoever they may be. People are deranged, religious one's are the worst to.

I bought some Vitamins and have been getting out, being active. I went to see War of the Worlds today and that is a fantastic movie! Loved it. Tom Cruise has got his grove back.:) Must have been the marriage that stunted his growth. Sad to say. Who knows. Good movie. It's to hot to work outside so I haven't been working with Goliath as much as I should the last week or so. I'm not a morning person but need to start doing that around 5 or 6am.. To Hot any other time. I did nothing for the 4th. Stayed home and worked on a website design for another site. Not much going on besides that.

I have been so tired this week. All I want to do is sleep or lay down. I don't know what it is, maybe the heat. I feel exhausted. I had my online show on Tuesday at 4pm EST. Just call me a girl in heat. Maybe that can be my excuse.:) I love naked men, with well endowed cocks. My god, give me a fan to cool myself. I do have another show saturday night just look at the schedule. I'll be on Friday night. I wish I had the energy I did when I was a kid.

I watched that episode on 20/20 (i think that was the show). It was about plastic surgery and the 7 Sins (Vanity). If those women can look young when 59 then I'm gonna start and find me a good dermatologist to help my skin look it's best! I don't think I"ll go to the lengths some of them go. They had their whole face done by plastic surgons (yikes)... But to stay looking younger for a long time would be very nice indeed!

I got my new computer setup today. It's fast to! It's a P4, 3 GHZ.. Ariel has another show tomorrow at around Noon EST. It's on the schedule so check it out. She still is in great shape. Did I mention she got 3rd in the fitness comp she did in Finland? She did really well. Besides that did I mention it was Hotter then Hadies here? Well it's so Hot that Anything you touch in the Shade burns. It didn't cool down overnight either. So when I went out to feed at 6am it was still very very HOT. Was asking for it moving here to Arizona. Walk outside and your feet will start to drag and it's such an opressive heat.

I have a show Saturday at 11pm EST. I'll also have one scheduled for Tuesday around Noon for you Europeans. I've been working horses and then on this computer. I need to try to get on my Treadmill more often but after the Horse the heat zaps me of the energy.

gosh, what a night. It was a Hot one that is for sure. I had sex with my dildo during my show Saturday night. I fucked it like it was the last dick on earth. I sometimes hate. I shouldn't but I have those times, like tonight for instance. I could scream at the top of my lungs till everyone left the house. Except for my sweet little baby dogs. I put a misting system up in the barn and my mare Queenie tore it down while I was gone and her stall and her half of the barn was flooded. What a mess. The person I have that lives with me just over reacted and gets all upset and does some stupid shit and does it ALL WRONG. So I have to go do everything anyway! People just need to go away and not do anything when they are upset because it just fucks everything up even more. Can I hit someone over the head tonight? Maybe a few people. I am good since I have control. Just breath, it will all be OK! I'll go have a few beers now. %$^#@#@@!!!&^(*)((#$#!@@#!@!!@!#$$^^%&^*&$^#@!#@!!!!!!!!!!).

I just finished working my Horse then I took a shower. I still don't feel as if I'll cool down today. It's so Hot. I started my diet today. I'm tired of eating like crap. I do feel much healthier when eating clean but it's hard to do. I need to get some protein shakes to help out. I've been fantasizing allmost every day about getting slambed by a Hot, Sexy Guy. Oh, Women hit their puberty at age 30 I think. My lord I'm Hot inside and out ALL the time now. Help!!! I'll start doing more cardio soon. Lots of cold showers to will help. I am putting up my schedule for this weekend. I'll have a show on Saturday at 8pm EST.

I went and visit my mom in Kentucky on Wednesday of last week and just returned from my trip last night. It was a fun visit, I go stir crazy visiting and not doing a whole lot. I was suppose to return tomorrow but I couldn't take pacing back and forth thinking what I could get accomplished at home. So now I'm home! I love my mom dearly but she did not want to go anywherewhile I was there. It was a little depressing, that trip. I hope she is ok. I am concerned about her. She seems like she may be not feeling at to well or something.

Friday night around 11pm EST (8pm PST) I'll be on here chatting it up so come say hello. Ariel usually write me the end of the week for her scheduled shows so just make sure you check the schedule out on Friday to see if she has shows during the weekend. She looks cut and her comp was a couple weeks ago. Can't say I really would want to stay that lean. Make's me to moody. Kinda like my mare Queenie. Always so moody. The darn wench.:) Can't say I like be be known as moody though.

It's so very hot here. My outside temp reads 110 in the shade. I think my next home will be a little farther away from this desert. It sucks.. Fucking to HOT! I have a show tonight at 11pm EST (8pm PST). Come and visit with me. I laid in bed most of the day since it's hot and I've been in a very bad mood for no reason at all. I just get grumpy and I really can't help it. Errr. I'm in a good mood now so that is what counts.:) Maybe I need to go to the store and get some Midol tonight.

This is my new horse Goliath with me from Friday the 13th. We picked up a black horse on Friday the 13th and was stuck in LA traffic for 4 hours. There could have been worse things to happen. :) Queenie got her ultrasound done on Tuesday and we are pregnant! In 11 months I'm hoping for a filly! It's Hot down here in Arizona. It's suppose to get up to 112 degrees! Damn, thank god for air conditioning. I'll have to work the horses early so I can be inside. I'll have a suprise chat session tomorrow night. It's friday so cum and say hello. Around 11pm EST.

I'm in heat. I Need it so bad that I think I may explode! Ok, I'm not panting yet.

I changed my showtime to Sunday at 11pm est (8pm PST)

I went to LA yesterday and I ordered some wine with room service. When he came up I had my rob on with the front open. The room service guy couldn't keep his eye's straight.:) God, don't you love being just a little bad at times? I need to get me one of those cell phone's with the camera so I can take a photo and no one notice. Well, that was my thrill for the night. I have a Sat show this weekend. I gotta get back to the gym, busy week this week. I had another volunteer foster the dog and that was a lot of the work off me. Way to much work and didn't have enough time for much else with him. He was a sweetie though.

Gosh, can someone come and clean my house? I clean and then I turn around and it isn't clean any longer! whaa.

Where did the time go today? So fast. Tomorrow evening I have a show at 8pm EST. Wonder if I should start making them later? Seems to be a lot of people to chat with around midnight est. Let me know. I'm very tired tonight. I spent most of my day on Volunteer time. I went and got a little dog and he seems to have quit a few problems, I am fostering. For a couple days at least. I believe in the end we'll have to put him down and that makes me very.......... depressed. He's such a sweet dog, why is it all the nicest kindest things in life have to have things hurt or wrong. Make it the bad one's only! Sometimes I do wish it was a perfect world.:) I need to go hug and squeez everyone a little extra tighter.

I was at the gym and doing curles and this guy asked if he could feel my arms, so I let him. I do believe if there was no one there he would have busted a nut all over. Not that I would have minded since he wasn't bad looking at all.

I was busy today! At six o'clock I was so tired I laid down for an hour to rest. I mopped the floors and dusted. Painted one side of the barn because the horse rubed to much on it. Went to the store and got some grocery's. Done dishes and cleaned stalls. I didn't sit for at least 8 good hours. I'm feeling better and could do more but will wait till the sun rises again. More to do tomorrow.

Besides updating the website and working on Graphics I have been busy with the horses and cleaning. I haven't had time to go to the gym since Sunday so I'm going to head there and get my workout in by Noon today. My show today is at 8pm EST (5pm PST).

I hope everyone had a good weekend. Mine was good. I put my show schedule up, so Thursday at 8pm est, then Sat at 10pm EST. I'm horny, it must be the heat season.:) My mare went into season this past weekend and I took her down for the Artificial Insemination today! In 11 months we may have a baby! Cross my fingers. My first baby! Of anykind! Ok, I got my bookie and Nemo dog babies but I didn't get to see them born.:) What an exciting time this is. Love ya all and come to say hi at least. I chat almost every night! So comeon and umm, talk.:) Yea talk...

I wanted to post this. Maybe I'll look back on this diary and remember. I wasn't going to post anything in here about it. I had to put King down on Monday and wanted to share a poem.

Don't think of him as gone away, his journey has just begun,

Life holds so many facets, this earth is only one.

Just think of him as resting from the sorrows and the tears, in a place of warmth and comfort, where there are no days or years.

Think of how he must be wishing that we would know today, how nothing but our sadness can really pass away.

Think of him as living in the hearts of those he touch, for nothing loved is ever lost and he was loved so much.

Went to the gym and did my favorite, the stepper and legs. Not a lot going on with me. Just the usual work and house cleaning. Not like it does any good since it seems dirty again the next day. I'm glad I've never had kids though. Not something I want to experience for some reason.
There is no longer a thumbnail at the top to go to my "LIVE SHOW", you have to click on the text link that says "Venus Live show" to get to the show. Sometime's when I change something around people still look for the same Picture thumbnail when it's no longer there. Just wanting to make sure the old member to not look for the photo's thumbnail of the show video. I need to finish doing my dishes now. How fun! ha.

I worked my colt Nico tonight and got a few photo's of him after I washed him down. Here is one, he's 14 months and so handsome. I have a show Saturday, my show schedule is at the top of the main members page (don't forget).. Or else..:)

I went to the gym and did the Stair master then bis and tris today. Tomorrow I'll do laps for sure. I get tired of doing just the gym stuff and this new gym has so much to do. It's really good to find a nice place like it so you have Variety and don't get bored. Between that, taking care of my Horses and Dogs and the websites my schedule is full. I talked with my brother on Friday and he went to Las Vegas for the Week to do gunnery at the milityary base up there (He's in the National Guard).. Not much else going on that I can think of mentioning. I'm on chatting now though so sat hi!

I got a membership at a gym today. Finally found one that has just about EVERYTHING. You can swim, climb walls (hehe), raquet Ball, Tons of weights and cardio equipment. So today I got on the stair master and did that for 15 mintues then abs. Tomorrow I'm going to do that and swim some laps in the pool then use the Steam room.

I'm on some email list for Animals and someone posted this last night and maybe it wil bring a smile to you as well. It hasn't happened to me, yet...

I thought I would pass this along as a public service announcement. Earlier this year, it happened to me. This is a heads-up to those friends who haven't experienced it yet, and an explanation to those friends and family who have. Most of you have read the scare-mail about the person whose kidneys were stolen while he was passed out. Well, read on. While the kidney story was an urban legend, this one is not. It's happening every day. My thighs were stolen from me during the night a few years ago. It was just that quick. I went to sleep in my body and woke up with someone else's thighs. The new ones had the texture of cooked oatmeal. Who would have done such a cruel thing to legs that had been mine for years? Whose thighs were these and what happened to mine? I spent the entire summer looking for my thighs. Finally, hurt and angry, I resigned myself to living out my life in jeans and Sheer Energy pantyhose. Then, just when my guard was down, the thieves struck again. My butt was next. I knew it was the same gang, because they took pains to match my new rear end (although badly attached at least three inches lower than my original) to the thighs they stuck me with earlier. Now, my rear complemented my legs, lump for lump. Frantic, I prayed that long skirts would stay in fashion. It was two years ago when I realized my arms had been switched. One morning I was fixing my hair and I watched horrified but fascinated as the flesh of my upper arms swung to and fro with the motion of the hairbrush. This was really getting scary. My body was being replaced one section at a time. How clever and fiendish. Age? Age had nothing to do with it. Age is supposed to creep up, unnoticed, something like maturity. NO, I was being attacked repeatedly andwithout warning. In despair, I gave up my T-shirts. What could they do to me next? My poor neck disappeared more quickly than the Thanksgiving turkey it now resembled. That's why I decided to tell my story. I can't take on the medical profession by myself. Women of the world, wake up and smell the coffee.That really isn't plastic that those surgeons are using. You KNOW where they are getting those replacement parts, don't you? The next time you suspect someone has had a face "lifted", look again. Was it lifted from you? I think I finally found my thighs ... and I hope that Cindy Crawford paid a reallygood price for them! This is NOT a hoax. This is happening to women in every town every night. WARN YOUR FRIENDS. P.S. I must say that last year I thought someone had stolen my breasts.I was lying in bed and they were gone! As I jumped out of bed I was relieved to see that they had just been hiding in my armpits as I slept. Now I keep them hidden in my waistband.Hope I brought a smile to your day!:)

I've been thinking about my Family this morning. My Mom, Sister and Nieces mainly. I didn't get to see much of my sister last time I visited with my Mom in Kentucky. Maybe this year. My Sister and I arn't very close. That is mainly my fault. I am to judgemental at times and I suppose that is because I really love my neices and I just didn't/don't agree with how she and their father treated them growing up. I know it's none of my business but I just couldn't help myself. Maybe one day we can be closer. Plus my sis works like 12 hours a day during the week and she just wants to be home after work. Ok, off to another topic. I have a show tomorrow (Wed) at 5pm EST...
There is a YMCA not far from me that I think I'll go check out today. It would be great if it had a gym and swimming pool but I don't think it does.

Oh boy, I sure hope this post today. I have been installing fans in the barn for this comming summer. The heat is Starting up now. I'm on Chatting if you want to say hello. I have to clean up the kitchen some to so I'll be back and forth tonight.

Since this seems to be working right now, I have to post this.
This has to be the funniest video I have ever seen, I saw it and laughed my ass off all day.
it was taken from a commericial.
click here to see it -> http://216.158.136.80/fart.mpg

Damn!!
I posted in this several times and only the ones with me cussing it out showed!
can you believe that crap!!!

fucking shit! I posted on this damn thing twice and I bet ya this will post!!! If it does, then I'll tell you I tried writing for two days (two post) and this is what i get! NOTHING!

I just finished watching "Donny Darco" .. I am a little speachless about that one. You'd think a drug induced mind would come up with that. Very good though. It's just different is all. When a movie makes you feel something you know it's good. I have show on Monday at 3pm EST for those of you who've been asking me to have an earlier show. I went to Mexico Yesterday. It really makes you thankfull for the good old USA when you see some of the people there. If a person looked as if they were beaten to a bloody pulp here they would be in the hospital and/or questioned at the very least. Seems to me like there were quit a few people there that looked like they got the shit beat out of them. Not a place I'd want to go out at night and party. On top of all the poverty and Women/children begging on the streets. I wanted to buy a hat (I really have a thing for old Fashion Women's hats).. Here is a Photo from the other day of me driving Queenie! I trained her.

I'm having a show. Cum and say hi.:)

I'm a little home sick. Or maybe I should say mom sick. There are times I miss my Mom very badly, Like now. My heart feels sick for her and I just mis her very much. She will be in bed asleep so I won't call her.

I have thought of posting something interesting in here but I then look at this blog and think, "What the heck do I have to say that is new or interesting?".. Noda. I did promis someone to write the Lasgana recipe in here so I'll do that. I'll be on here tomorrow night around 10pm EST chatting. Say hi!

Lasagne:
1 LB Ground beef
1 Clove garlic, minced
1 T. basil
1 1/2 t. salt
2-6oz cans tomato paste
16 oz lasagne noodles
3 c. cottage cheese
1/2 c. parmesan cheese
2 T. parsley
2 beaten eggs
2t. salt
1 1/2 T. sugar
2 pkgs. sliced mozzarella cheese

Brown meat slowly, drain. Add next four ingredients; simmer, uncovered for 30 min. Cook noodles in boiling water. Drain, rinse. Combine remaining ingredients, except mozzarella cheese. Lightly butter 13 x 9 pan. Line bottom with noodles. Spoon 1/2 cottage cheese mixture, 1/2 mozzarella, 1/2 meat sauce. Repeat. Top with layerof noodles. Cover with foil. Bake 30 min at 375. Set stand 10 min before serving.

I think Martha Stewart has Friesians to. At least that is what I'm pretty positive I saw in her pasture (not like i was there or anything! ).. The news you know. Being sick I have been either sleeping, watching tv or my book. The medicine makes me feel like I'm half asleep so I don't read unless I'm flu medicine free.:) I've been sick with the flu (I all ready said that didn't I?). It hasn't gone ALL the way, I still ache in my joints but I'm better then I was.

My brother came over sunday and his son was sick. I'm sicker then shit today! Hopefully it passes quickly.

I invited my brother over for Dinner last night and made the best Lasgna dish from the Cook Book my Mom Gave me from my Grandmothers church on my Fathers side. Still eating the leftover and it's so good. Glad to move out here to the country, it's making me cook and I'm getting a lot better. I talked with my Old school friend Bambi last night to, she called not long after I got done eating dinner. I'll be on chatting tomorrow like always, I'll lay in bed this evening. It's that time of Month AGAIN! If you have to ask what time then don't ask..:) I talked with Quietguy and he had got a virus on his computer and had to use his backup disk and restore his whole computer. My Mom got one to but got it fixed with the help of her isp. So I sent her some photo's of King. That is my Clydesdale. I went out this moring and dug holes in the back of my property so the water would drain off into the ditch. We are water logged here. So much rain!

It's been raining, again. So I'll be in all weekend. I'm working on getting the barn camera put up so maybe tomorrow since I will have the time. I ordered a mounting plate for it. Seems like a lot of the wirless stuff is crap. At least when it comes to wireless Camera's. I will do the treadmill tomorrow morning. We are getting so much rain! It's a good weekend for my shows though! I have one Saturday and Sunday so say hi. For those of you who write about not seeing my shows, check the schedule at the very top of the members page. Can't miss it. I need to clean this house tomorrow to. I hate cleaning the house, a never ending task. seems like I finish the cleaning and then it's time to clean the first thing again. Running around in circles. I'm getting a facial tomorrow ( a real one, not the sperm and sex kind!:))and a hair cut. After I spend the day cleaning and putting up the barn cam. I'll be on chatting around 7pm my time (9pm EST).

I am watching Animal Planet tonight and there is a show on the Chinese Zodiac. So I went online and I am the FEARLESS! HA! Ok, "The year of the Tiger". Now hear me roar! Now I need to go find out what the "Wood" means.

Both Ariel and I have a show tomorrow, check the schedule. It's raining here and is suppose to rain through Saturday. So no outside time for me till early next week. My property is just plan muddy. Time for my mud boots again.

I have a show tomorrow night at 8pm EST. Don't forget to umm, get some lube? Just cleaning house today!

Well, I bought a new Wireless Camera package for the barn and home. It's in color and has very good reception. It will be here at the end of this week. I'll put one in the barn and then one in the livving area. Can't wait for it to come in! It's a very small camera to. As big as my finger and it also has a wide lense. Very good.

Ariel has a show tomorrow. Take a look at the schedule. I have to finish staining my barn on Sunday. Then I'm going to paint a Friesian Horse on the front. I have a drawing i"m going to trace onto the barn doors then paint it black.

I went to get up on one of my horses and my pants ripped. How embarrasing. It was a neighbor guy to who was standing there. Not sure since I was so embarrased but he just stood there like a statue not able to do a thing. I don't think I'll wear those kind of tight old jeans again (on a horse or trying to get on one anyway)! I do think he was amazed I had a nice firm ass though. I got that feeling just by the way he stood there staring!

I've added a bunch more video's over the weekend. Was pretty hard to since half the weekend my connection went down and I had to upload early or late when It came back up. So I was on the phone with them all day Monday. I think age does something to a women. I feel like a teenage boy going through puberty half the time. If a handsome man were to walk up to me, grab me and then strip off my cloths I think I'd fall into him and let him have his way. oh boy, just take me and fuck me like there is no tomorrow.

Make sure when you look at my Show schedule you check the DATE. I have seen a couple people asking about shows and it's not the right day.

I am going up to home depot to buy a mounting bracket for the barn camera today. As soon as I mount that you will be able to see the whole isleway and wash rack.

The barn cam works! It is on Voyeur camera number two in the members area.

I have added a lot of hardcord Video's in the past weeks. So check them out. I really like the new video of Toby bryants "actor" fucking the girl. That one is worth watching if you ask me. Yum.... Look at those video's I posted in the memebers section, they are good. I've been doing a little Research on Murals and am going to do a crumbling brick wall with vines ang grass growing in the crevices along my walls in the Hallway. I won't be starting that for a month or two yet. I decided not to take a vactaion in June. My home and animals are my little time away and i love being home to take care of them. I worry more when I'm gone and have less fun because of it. Actaully, come to think of it I have no fun because of it! I'm really going to work on getting my wireless Barn "Voyeur" cam up this week!

gosh, PMS sucks! I'm always on in the evening working/chatting/surfing. so if you see me and and I don't anwer in the chat room right away just give it a couple minutes and I will. I am not always looking in the chat but I do chat! So just have patients..:) I cut stall matts again today and made them fit the 12 x 16 stalls. Only one more to do then I'm finished with that task for good. I haven't been riding. I'm working with Queenie on holding herself long and low for collection in her back end. Trying to eat healthy but my lord I've had a sweet tooth all weekend!

Ahh, to sit down relax and have an ice cold Mike's Hard Lemonade is just great. Very busy day for me. Got the horses shoed, washed the truck, trained horses, shoveled sand into the two new stalls and put matts down. Then worked on the website, talked with my Mom also. Not enough time in the day. Ariel has a show Saturday and I have one Sunday so the weekend is quit full. What should I do, have an orgie online? Or I could umm dance naked and turn everyone blue. Or umm, get a little toy action then what? Hmm, maybe I should let you decide. Oh! and if you suggest anal then whatever you suggest i'll have to do to you first. Because if you don't look like your in the trows of extacy while being fucked in the ass then I don't think I'd wanna.:) Yea, yea spare me the excuses. Love ya anyway! Stop by the chat and say hi at least. If your horny it will be more fun.:)

Since I sold Emma I had been looking for a gelding so I can let out with my stallion and my mare Queenie at seperate times. We'll I found him and his name is "King". Now I have a Queen and a kind in my barn. He's an 18.2 Hand clydesdale Gelding and he's broke to ride and drive. I can't wait to get him! He'll be here around the 14th of next month. Here is a photo of king. Ariel and i both have shows this week/weekend so take a look at the schedule.

I've had the worst of luck this weekend with having people call or show up when I least expected it. I sold Emma my Friesian mare today. The girl that bought her is my age and really nice. We plan to get together and go riding sometime soon. I'll get to see Emma on occaision so that will be nice. She had some personality issues that drove me a little nuts.

Make sure you all check my show schedule at the Very top of the main members page. It will have dates and times, that is my show schedule, it also says, "Venus's live Show schedule" on top of that.:) I've been eating healthy. Fairly healthy anyway. I was looking at a photo on a message board of a guy who put something around his dick and cut the head of his cock off. OH MY GOD! That is sick. Who would do something like that anyway? It looked real and it had stages of what he was doing and everything. Kinda made me wanna pass out from the photo's. There are some mentaly deranged people out there. Love ya!

I made a homemade cake today. Taste fantastic. I have been doing well on my eating and trying to lose fat and gain muscle. I've been working on some new design for the website but really haven't gotten anywhere yet. I learned a few tricks and then my page stayed blank. Oh well, it'll come to me.

I rode Queen Yesterday and rode emma a little today when someone came over to see her. I applied to go to a college here and am just waiting for my transcripts to get here. I had my show today at 4pm EST (I shaved and umm had a little toy sex)..:)

It's raining and is suppose to be raining all week long. So I think I'll hop on my treadmill today for a bit and also do some squats on my squat rack. I've been cleaning and working on here as well. I will turn the voyeur cam on when I do my workout this evening. Those of you who are well endowed need to send me some photo's please.:)

Happy New Year! Wow, 2005. Life is zipping by like a real to a movie film. That just about sums it up. I had a good night last night. I had a couple of others over last night (Raquel my hopfull sister in law but I doubt she will ever marry my brother, and then my horse trainer who is a very tense and to serious of a person, the girl needs to laugh once in awhile!) and we had wine and champaign. My New years resolution is to get FIRMER, LEANER. It's it always!:) I have a guy emailing me photo's of his dick and I have to say, "oh my god!".. He's big and thick and I would buy him a ticket just to come down and fuck me like a women like me needs, so bad.. I have to squeez my leg together and think of something else not to get hot and wet! Very bothered.