I have been reading a great romance by Lisa Kleypas called "Suddenly You". That is one of my favorites now and I will keep it on my shelf. Not many Novels I like that I will keep. I do hate periods. Added some new stuff to the video section. Like the hustler content with "Coby Bryant" actor doing white women and stuff. Pretty good.

I just finished making the best salmon ever. I like the kind that just taste a little sweet. It's called Ginger-Honey Glazed Barbecu Salmon. I'll write the recipe here.

1/3 cup honey

1/3 cup low-sodium soy sauce

1/3 cup rice vinegar

2 cloves garlic, crushed

1 tablespoon freshly grated ginger

6 - salmon fillets, 4 to 6 ounces each



Preparation - Estimated cooking time: 25 minutes -

1 Combine the honey, soy sauce, vinegar, garlic and ginger in a small saucepan. Cook over high heat until the mixture reduces by half. Let cool.

2 Spray the grill grate with non-stick spray (or oil it well) and preheat the grill to medium-high.

3 Season the salmon fillets with salt and pepper. Brush them on both sides with the honey mixture.

4 Grill the salmon on each side until it is cooked through, about 4 to 6 minutes per side, depending on thickness.

5 Drizzle the salmon with the remaining honey mixture and serve.

Ok, I need to ask a quetion about video. Does anyone know how I can edit a video on my computer and have it transfered to a DVD for playback on DVD for TV's? I have a video of my horses that I need to edit and send to someone and i was wanting to put it onto a dvd but someone has told me that my cd rewriter in my computer uses different cd's then a DVD player? If that is true how can I get the video's I encode and edit on here onto a DVD cd? Expecially since it will be for a dvd player and not a computer?

I have a show at 8pm EST tonight so show up and say hi. I'll be naked and a little bit naughty. Busy day with the computer and horses. Cum!

Merry Christmas! I've been cooking today; bread, cookies, spread for the bread, and tomorrow I'll be cooking a green bean cassarole and take everything over to my brothers house for dinner. Stay safe and have a merry christmas!

Ok, I need you guys to write me and tell me what keeps you motivated. Lately I have found nothing to keep me going on my workouts. I try changing it around but man. It's just so hard for me to push myself. Any of you guys have suggestions? I do need motivation at times myself.

I was up most of the night last night with my Dog Bookie. He got on the table and someone had left a package of Chocolate on it and Bookie ate just about the whole pack while I was outside (Nemo to but not as much). I called the vet as soon as I was told and she told me to feed him a small meal then take them both outside and give them Peroxide so they would throw it up. That is what I did. Bookie just about threw up all night since he has a very sensitive stomach anyway. It worked though and the chocolate came right up. I don't have a Scheduled show this week but I will be on chatting and maybe a flash and some fun while talking. Christmas, everyone is busy. Just maybe not all of us.

Well, I need to find my man and fuck him good tonight. Ariel had a show last week and was doing anal. I am not an anal kind of girl. Anal Just don't do anything for me. I like it doggie style the best but the anal thing isn't for me. I don't mind watching it though as long as it don't get nasty.:) You know, shit does come from there.

I've been taking Emma to a John Lyons Certified trainer each morning. I'm a little on the tired side and will probably take a nap. I have a show tonight at 9pm EST. Ariel has had a couple this past week and I will put her shows up again when she e-mails me with when she'll do them. We went to the 49ers VS Arizona Cardinals on Sunday and our team won! Go 49ers! Not like they really have a big chance at making it to the supper bowl this year or anything! Anyway, that was my first pro game and I was NOT impressed. Kinda the same as high school with more people. Not sure what I was expecting though. Maybe Giant guys in uniform? But no, I don't think I was. Football does not seem as fun as it once was to me.

Now the topic of my brother. Do I have to talk about him? Yes! Not like he listens when anyone in the world tells him anything. It's like the words hit a brick wall. Every time we have gone out for a good time with Him and his "fiance" they are fighting or he's hurt her feelings very badly. Between looking at other women, wanting them, watching them. He looks at everyone besides the one's he with. Then he laughs it off like it's a joke. I could not stand to live with someone like him. We forgot why we don't go out with him much. Who can have fun being around that? Sorry, but his male ego has to go. His loyalities does not lay with anyone in paticular either. That isn't just with the female race but in everything.

Well I got my brother his xmas present. It's early but the game is this comming sunday so I will be giving it to him when I get the tickets in. I'm going to so we'll have a fun day out. It's the 49ers playing against Phoenix.. Can't wait! i've never actually been to a pro football game.

I have a show tonight at 9pm EST so come say hi and relax, enjoy the show with me. Ariel has a show on Saturday and Sunday during the day, at like 2pm est. It's on the schedule in the memebers area. I've lost more weight since I've been doing my workouts and getting back into shape fairly quickly. Like they say, "Muscle is Memory".

I've been working out on legs twice a week and my upper body twice a week. I try to do crunches after each workout. The first couple days my abs were so sore that I couldn't do them the next day so I had to hold off thill they didn't feel so sore.



Ok confession time :)

This is not an everyday day thing for me to do, but somtimes I guess a girl has to do what a girl has to do... Earlier tonight I had a couple friends over, Jay saw the camewa on top of my TV pointed at us and asked if my Camera was on. I told him yes. He then said, "Shouldn't we be doing something to entertain?". He got up and started doing a stip tease for me! The man is incouragable! So I sat on his lap after his dance and gave the people watching the voyeurcam something to watch (did mention he was naked). It was a tease but oh so fun. Maybe next time he's over we'll go another step :)

Wednesday Dec 1 I'm getting a new business cable modem installed and so will post my new schedule starting then. This one was going down this morning so I ended up taking off my show for this evening. I will have Ariels posted but my schedule will be posted for Dec 1. I did squats and leg last night and my butt is sore today. I worked with the horses today and I'm tired. I'm tired of them also right now and sometime think they are the stupidest creatures! Having a bad horse day. There are times I have to tell myself to breath and just walk away.

Happy Thanksgiving you all. We celebrated tonight. My brother and his fiance came over with her daughter and grandson. Her Mom died on Sunday and her family is getting together tomorrow and the funeral is on Saturday. I'm making a resolution to start getting into a healthier style of eating and lifting in the evenings. Not sure If I'll start tonight but If my food digest then I'll do some squats tonight. Lightly. I need to find some of the parts for my situp machine. I think I'll go look in the garage tonight. I have a show on friday night so cum!:) The year is almost up. time is going way to fast these days. Be safe and have a happy holiday you all.

Ariel has/had a show everyday this weekend. She's still ripped from her competition. I got a new horse a couple weeks ago and her name is emma (Friesian). I'm attching a photo of me riding her from yesterday, she's a very spooky horse so I'm taking it very slow with her. Me and emma Photo. She is beautiful though. I have to figure a way to get her hind legs more muscular. I think driving may help her with developing her back end. I will have my new show schedule posted tonight.

I have a show tonight at 9pm EST (6pm PST).. I think I"ll use that big cock of a dildo I have! Ra! I need to find a guy with a nice big cock to make an appearance on here. I use to know one long ago.. Oh to have that dick now! I don't want to be friends or cuddle, just fuck me and then go home please. That is all I need is a good @!ck... Yum, Yum.. To bad fantasy's are a lot more screwed up when they become real. That or the sex is horrid and you didn't even get off. Never as good so keep it fantasy. The guy who says he can make it better then fantasy is the one usually who is awful. It's those quit types who are propably very HOT in bed. Not like I'd know! Love ya all! See you tonight.

I had my show last night and had fun with the guys in there. Such a blast. I will be going to get myself some training this spring and will have my laptop with me doing shows. I am going to get Certified to be a Professional Horse trainer. I'll also be able to visit my best friend Bambi from High school while gone to! Since I have to be gone from home my little baby dogs will be going with me. So will Queenie and Emma for my taining horses. I may bring Nico depending on how he is acting and if he is in desperate need of better training. I'll have to make video's and post on the site while I'm gone. Not gone from the site since My camera and laptop can follow me into my room.;) We'll just have some fun. Can't be all work and no play time. Besides that and cleaning my house there isn't much to report. I'll post my new show schedule for this week tonight.

I had my show last night, it was a blast! Thanks you all. I have lots of fun when I have people in there like that.:) I need to get the house cleaned today.. I want to get some Christmas shopping done before thanksgiving so I may do that Sunday or sometime next Week. We are buying ourself a plasma TV for Christmas but we are not sure what size since they are still expensive.. the HD kind. Maybe we'll wait till after the new year and find some good sales. I'm in the spirit of things all ready! I'm going to get my Mom a couple things so I want to get them sent before the Thanksgiving rush starts.

Geez, Life... Something how fast time is going by. I spend a lot of time cleaning and by the time I relize it, it's dark outside! Heck, not enough years in a lifetime. I'll be posting my show schedule soon. Went to my Mom's for a couple days this past week and helped her with the puppies. Cute, but you know What? I am sooo glad I don't have to potty train any of them...

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I've been trying to get this house clean then by the time I'm done it's dirty again. Who said the air in Arizona is clean?! There is so much dust here. I have an online show on Wednesday and Thursday. I just love taking care of my horses! I am selling Queenie. I found a Friesian mare and got her today. She's stunning! I'll have to make a gallery and link it here. There was a guy working on my electricity and boy. Did he look like he might have had a big dick.:) To bad I don't have xray vision. See the real buldge down under.

I did my online show tonight and had fun. Except for my cable modem being slow it was a very nice entertaining show! I am taking dressage lesson's and my Physical Therapy ended this week. Finally! Actaully I'm doing the exercises at home now instead. What a long drive. It takes me a good hour to get there and I really don't want to make that trip any longer. I've been cleaning tonight. I've been so busy cleaning, taking care of my boys and the Horses. My neighbor called yesterday afternoon and asked if we could take her horse to the vet. So we did since he had a big gash in his side and you could see down to the cartlige.. How horses manage to hurt themselfs like that beats me. It's a wonder any survive in the wild. I'll have next weeks schedule posted tomorrow. Love you all! smooch, kiss!

I went to the Friesian Extravaganza and will be home tonight! I had a blast looking at the horses and watching the shows. I bought some riding Breeches and tops for my Dressage classes while I was there. Now I'm just about set. Mett some People and seen the sale horses. Not very many filly's to chose from and I didn't see anything that caught my eye except for one and she was just a tad bit over what I'd pay for. I am starting my workout routine when I return and try to get my bodyfat lower. So No more waffles.:) I"m going to workout 3-4 days per week. That whould help with getting my body in better shape. I feel like a couch potatoe comming to my Hotel room without any workout.....

Ariel has a show tonight! It's actually tomorrow (midnight) but if you haven't been to sleep yet it's still today, right? By my standards anyway. It's actually at 12:45 am so forty five minutes after the hour.

I am in a mood tonight and just got that way for no reason at all. I just feel like cutting all my hair off. Since I can't find a good hair dresser and the one's I have went to SUCK! Then there is the house a mess and everything to clean, again. For the love of god!!!!!! Plus I have a hard time waking up. So tonight there will be no Muscle Relaxers or ANYTHING! Hell, I feel like SHIT. I'm determined to get up in the AM, feed my Animals, run on my treadmill, do some squats, clean the kitchen then the barn and ride queenie while I'm at it then do my online show! Let me WAKE UP! I feel like getting a boxing bag and BEATING the LIVING SHIT OUT OF IT!

I rushed Nemo to the vet today because he was acting very abnormal. He's fine now, not sure what was wrong but she did give him a cortozone shot. Thinking maybe a bug bite that we couldn't see since he's a black dog and it's hard to find anything like that on him. I will be workingout tomorrow sometime. I have to train and ride queenie then I'll workout. I have to go to physical Therapy again tomorrow so that will take time.

Well I've been putting lots of miles on the truck these past two weeks. The Physical Therapy place is so far, like 23 miles away! I also think I'm losing my mind! I was going over the website and updating like always and I could have swore I changed my schedule around and had it all update. All the date's were from last week and not even on the days I had planned to do shows on My calandar! I really think there is a ghost in the computer changing things on me! Ok, maybe I'm just having some kind of memory malfunction in my own head. I'm sure between the muscle relaxers/Hydracodean/Ibuprophen, that I could have dreamed it all! On top of all that I'm gaining weight and it isn't at all becomming on me. My Mom is also going to drive me to drinken. The women just don't follow directions or anything I tell her, she forgets ALOT. So I am going to go visit her at the end of this month to help her when the new owners come to pick up their puppy's. She gets very ummm, .... Insecure on if she's doing it right then don't know that I have people sign contracts and don't understand! Ahhhhh! Make me pull out my hair!:) So I changed my ticket around to get there before the first puppy Parents arrive, for a few days then I'll be back home. I do miss chatting to you guys so lets plan to take off and come and chat with me on here. Hmm? Comon...

Ariel e-mailed me today and she won first place in her fitness competition this past week! It was in Finland. She is going to have it up on her camera in my memembers area on Wednesday at 11am EST (8am PST). On another note. I ate way to much and my stomach feels as if I'm gonna explode, owwwisssme..... I think I'm gonna puke it all up................

All I ever do is clean. Then I'm right back where i started cleaning in the first place. I had my first Dressage lesson on Thursday of last week. It was fun and not as challenging as Jumping. That is good since I have the Physical Therapy stuff going on right now. I was planning on a workout this morning but didn't get to it. I will have to start making myself. I laid back down and sleep after I feed the horses and dogs. The muscle relaxers I take at night make it hard for me to wake up.

I had a show earlier tonight. Yea, you missed it if you didn't see me on, Bad boy. I will be doing a workout at 11am EST Saturday Morning. Running on the treadmill, maybe some squats. I was planning on doing them tonight but My doctor has me on Muscle Relaxers and I only take them at night since they just about knock me out. We haven't been flying as much. So we were thinking of selling the airplane and just renting when we do fly. Would be earier since we have to stay home mosly to take care of the business and the Animals. My mom sent me Photo's of the puppies and they are just to cute!

I have a show tonight at 10pm est. I will do squats and chat, half naked anyway.:) Nothing new going on.

The usual, Cleaning stalls, feeding horses, clean house, take care of my boys (Bookie and Nemo!). I'll go take a shower now.

My show tonight is at 10pm EST. I'm going to lift on my Smith Machine and do a workout show. Something different for a change. I was suppose to call my brother today but didn't. I really don't like going over to his house. He's always being stupid about something and Raquel is mad at him a lot of the time. I would be to and I don't blame her at all. He is going to get what he deserves one day. You just don't go around hurting everyone in your life that is suppose to mean something to you. He asked me once if I were going to have kids and I said no. He then stated that I would be alone at the end of my life and he wouldn't want that for himself. Kids have nothing to do with weather your alone or not. If you treat people right I think your more likely not to be alone at all. He's the one that will end up alone. Your spouse or at least the person your with is suppose to be your best friend. If going around lying and cheating on a best friend is what he thinks a friend is for, then he's got a long hard road ahead. I don't like to be around it. I feel as if it puts tention on me when i'm there. My dad was stupid like that. Going around trying to be his own man and never really feeling for anyone else. I never did see my Mom Cry when he died. She may have. They had a long hard marriage. My Mom was the best through it all though. Well, sure she could have been better at things in our lives but a man and Father like he was would make any women in the universe struggle. At least she was solid and always there for us. I just hope my brother would look in the mirror and open his eyes. Is it realy worth it, to fuck around all your life and wait until the end of it to make amends and love anything?

Long weekend! We took Nico to be Judged and he got a first! He's on his way to becomming an awsome stallion. I will be posting my new show schedule for this weekend tonight. I'm very tired. It rained here on Saturday and flooded my property. I was praying that the house wouldn't go under! What a headach. love you all! Sorry I've just been busy this week with the horse show.

Gosh, have I forgot about writing in here or what? I go on here to write and get sidetracked with email or the schedule and end of forgetting. Cookie had some beautiful puppies and i visited with my Mom. I'm worried about her, she is showing her age. I hope she will try to quit smoking. Does anyone know of a good product I can get to help her kick the habit? Worth a try anyway. I do not wish for her to die EVER! Makes my heart hurt just thinking about it. Can't live without her. At least I don't want to. I am so tired of cleaning these floors in my house. We need to get some grass or something down. I will mop and by the evening the next day they look like I haven't cleaned in months! So fustrating since I don't want to have to do them EVERY DAY.

I'll be doing my schedule soon. I've been doing Physical Therapy for my arm and I'm feeling great. My mom's dog Cookie had five puppies friday! I'm going to visit her this week for three days. I just love puppies. I bought a Smith Machine the other day and it is suppose to be in on Thursday. I'll start doing some workouts on the back porch and try to get that wireless stuff in working order so you all can watch. Sears has some good prices on that stuff to.

I took a hard fall today. I was riding Queenie in the Arena and she got spooked when we were Galloping past my back yard and Nemo was barking. I tried to hold on and ballance but Gravity had me in it's claws! I tell you what, that is the first time since I was a kid that I have hurt myself like that. I had to lay there about five minutes untill the pain left and then I moved very slowly because I tought maybe my hip was broke and was afraid the damn pain would come back. Thank god I didn't break anything. Tried yelling for umm Gizzy.:) He didn't hear and I was glad since I don't like him knowing about me falling. Anyway after that I got back up and made sure everything was in place then got back on that mounting block and rode Queenie till she was all SWEAT!! I was a little harder on her then I probably should have been (she is just a baby) . So now I feel bad because I let a little of my madness take over me. She forgave me and I'll just have to stop and think before I go to correct her. Try not to be so hard with her. It's just when I get pain I get a little ticked off. I think I'll go wach some more horse training video's so I can be better. Oh, I got my horse trailer today! Now I can travel with my horses!

ok, I need to appoligize for canceling both shows over the weekend. The doctor gave me those pills and they knock me out. I will only take tylonol during the day so I can function properly. This weeks schedule for me will be posted this evening. The MRI came back and I have some kind of "Buldging", i don't have a clue what she ment by that. The remedy is to go to Physical Therapy 3 times a week for 12 weeks. Shit. I may got to the first couple sessions and then do the exercises at home the rest of the time. Love ya all! Don't forget to check my schedule.

I have an MRI this morning. They are just checking to see what is going on the my C spine. The doctor gave me a few perscriptions yesterday and one of them is a narcatic for pain and to get me to sleep at night. The other is a muscle relaxer and it also makes you tired and feel as if your not all there. Let me tell you how I feel about that. Like shit! How in the world people can be addicted to this kind of stuff is a clue to me. I feel as if I'm numb and can't think and I hate it. Took me a few minutes yesterday looking at my computer screen to think what I was sitting down to do in the first place. God! Makes a person a few cans short of a six pack, in the head that is. I feel as if I was sluring half the day yesterday. Everything was happening in slow motion. Ok, I'll get off the subject. Other then that I need to start working (training) the horses more and get my shows on track.

I haven't been posting in here like I should. We finished putting up the horse Fence on Saturday and so I've been trying to catch up on some much needed sleep. My arm has been troubling me for weeks and I went to the doc last week. They called tonight to say it looks like there is some Arthritis between my 6th and 7th Vertibre. Not sure what that means but I do have an appointment for the results and maybe more tests tomorrow. Hopefully they can give me something to stop the pain. I am well other then that. Doesn't matter how healthy you try to be, there are always some consequences that can happen from an active lifestyle.

Well! The Living room/kitchen voyeur camera will be up and running tomorrow. Got the new wireless stuff in. That other we had was so old it wasn't working after the move. So now we are gonna be back to voyeurs. I am going to go down to Christies in a few weeks and work there a couple nights a week. It's a topless club.

Ariel has two shows tomorrow and I have a show tomorrow evening. Trying to get the horse fence up and cleaning during the day, just been busy and havent thought of a whole lot to put in here. Cum to the online shows, they are fun. Called my Mom and talked to her, she tries to be my doctor. I think all Mom's do though.

Seems like to long since I wrote in here. I've been chatting in the chat room but not writing in here. Last week I was running along with Nico and we actually tripped. There was magically a hole there. After I put Nico up I went back to look and there was a hole the size of a dinner plate all the way down to the septic and the top of that caved in. Man, I would have been in Shit creek if I'd have fell in. This builder has not done much right. They got it fixed. Seems like everything is working now though.

I"m exhausted. I finally got Queenie and Nico home and the barn is up. I'm working my butt off trying to get everything unpacked, the barn setup, the barn sealed (the wood), and my show schedule back on track. I still have boxes that need to be organized and there has been one thing after another going wrong with things in the house. Other then that things ARE well! Most of those other things are great just the house not working right is what is fustrating. I do have an online show tomorrow, so cum and say hi!

I spent 4 hours putting up a ceiling fan today. I went by step by step directions and had a few problems along the way. It's up and working now! Just a very slight rock. Have to balance it and figure out what side is off. I'll do that tomorrow!

Ok, we are up and running in the new home. What a long haul that felt like. The walk through didn't go well and they have been in and out of here fixing stuff this whole week. We just got our second delivery yesterday and was able to unpack the computers and get them up and running in here. So my offic voyeur camera is up right now. Next week I will have the living room/kitchen voyeur camera up and on. I am waiting for the people to get this place fixed so no more traffic of construction. Glad it's done. The barn is being erected on Tuesday! I get to get Queenie and Nico on Thursday evening.

Ariel has shows this weekend.  Next week I'll have a new schedule posted. The horses are taking up a lot of my time this week just because it's such a long drive down to see them. My barn will be up next tuesday and I'll be able to put a voyeur camera in there also.

I closed today. Seems like everyone down here is rushing to get stuff done. To lazy to do it, but when it comes to the deadline they rush!

Geesh! enough said. Moving sucks big. Bite me! Oh, so now i might not be able to visit with my old Friend from jr. high/high school when she comes to Las Vegas, it's the same weekend I have to move!! That is now. Soo, I'm bummed but will hopefully see her this fall. I plan to take a trip to Denver to see her then. Ariel had a show today. I've been soo turned on but that isn't anything new. I was reading tonight, then after I read a little while I started noticing the lines in my hands. I hope it's just the dry weather! gosh, kinda noticing my skin (on my hands) isn't looking so youthfull. I ran upstairs and added some lotion. It is dry here and I'm not old at all. Just the depressing thought of umm the word OLD. I just sit and notice things a lot. Like how you can see the sun marks on someone who stays out in the sun. So I go smooth on spf 30. HEll, prevention helps!

I have been busy with packing. I will be moved next week. Long time comming. I took a nap today at 1pm and didn't wake up till 4pm!! I looked at the clock and said, "holy shit!". Must have been tired.

Ariel has a show tomorrow and friday afternoon. Check the schedule, I posted them tonight.

Jeff hired a massuse for me, It was a guy to. I think he was pretty hung since I did see a buldge in his pants as he gave me that massage. I know it, I'm a sex phein. Sometime a big dick is ALL I think about! Just take me like it's your last day on earth. Fuck me breathless.;)

Ok, I just left my 20's behind. Yes, it was my birthday and I turned the next chapter. Thanks to those who sent me birthday wishes. The icecream cake that we bought was absolutly fabulous! Really weird to see the 30 on the cake! How odd that we don't feel older but yet the years tick by so fast. I'm happy and wanted to post this little poem someone sent.





Taking time to smell the flowers,

Counting the joys instead of hours,

Delighting in the simplest things,

Letting all your thoughts have wings,

Feeling peaceful deep inside,

Facing everything in stride,

Balancing both work and play,

Learning all along the way,

Moving toward a dream or goal,

Nurturing your heart and soul,

Showing others that you care,

Finding beauty everywhere,

Understanding true success,

Choosing love and happiness

Sharing with a special friend,

Enjoying all that life can send!





from the writings of Emily Matthews

I talked to my friend from school "Bambi" on MSN Messenger last night. She was a little busy on the phone then went to bed. I hope she gets on again soon! Another day of workingout, feeding horses, taking a nap and working on this computer. After my workout I was exhaused and had to take a nap. I have a show tomorrow night and we will have some fun! Maybe I can get you to take off all those restricting cloths.

I have been hitting the gym twice a day. I also started taking care of the horses for a friend in the AM and so have to get up early to do that. Besides doing web design and computer work I've been waiting on the new home to be finished. We close July 12th. I get Nico next week! He is barley weaned and I'm worried that he's going to colic on the trip so if she (the breeder) is concerened I do hope she lets me know so she will keep him with his mama a little longer. I've been so turn on it's driving me to distraction. I have an online show Friday at 10pm EST (7pm PT), say hi at least. Take a little time out of that busy schedule and relax.

Oh, oh, oh. I fogot to say. My besttttt friend from jr high/high school is visiting, yippee. For some reason I was going to put it in here when she told me but I got side tracked with email! Yipee, Bambi is comming and I will be here to see her! . God, that girl was a trip in school. I use to spend the night with her but only remember playing board games (the dice) and using Noxema, lol. Tennagers. Not sure but seems like some of those memories kinda got scramblem on my hard drive.:)Shit! Why can't i remember some stuff! I am not that old! Oh fuck! That reminds me. My birthday is comming up and oh booo. This is the first time I will have seen her since 10th Grade! I better stop cussing and screaming before eveyone thinks i have a bad mouth.:)I do at times but only with you all!:)Whoever that may be. And only in here since it is MY diary.

I've been doing my shows and going to the gym. Makes me feel ALIVE. I had a pap smear yesterday, I really don't like those. Only reason I go is because you HAVE to, to get a prescription for the birth control. The girl I was boarding my horse with here called and asked if I could take care of her horses next week. So I'll be doing that for a few days while she is out of town. Not much else but the usual. I have a show tonight at 10pm EST (7pm PT). Join me online and have some fun!

I got fed up last night and had to go subscribe to the gym for an extra month till I move. I can't stand not working out! Makes me feel like I can feel the adapose tissue building up under my skin.:) Yea, FAT. I did 45 minutes on the stepper and also did bis and tris today. I think I'll work back and shoulders tomorrow. I do have an Online show tomorrow night at 8pm EST. Then saturday at 10PM EST. I had a few people ask if Im still going to have my site because I'm moving. Well yes I sure am! Just because I move don't mean I won't have internet access and my cams up.:) I am even bringing my laptop with me to my hotel and my voyeur cam will be on and you can see me there. Isn't the internet just grand? What the hell would we do without it anyway? I would feel like all this education missed out on. Everything I do is on here. Shopping, reasearch (everything), work, chat. Life would really be boring without this computer. I even found both my Horses online. Use to be you could only see things local. Now you can see a horse all the way around the world and buy it if you like, online. Of course that would cost a lot extra and all but that isn't my point.

Begging of July i"ll have my voyeur cams back up. Can't wait to get started on setting everything up! I did my show last night and will be posting the Video on Demand of it today, in the members area.

This weeks schedule was posted Sunday night. I have three shows during the week and Ariel has a couple comming up. Check the schedule on top of the main members page. We should be getting the walk through date with our house today. Not much happening. My gym membership expired today so now I'll have to get up and go jogging in the morning. I need to find a good gym around where my new home will be.

I have a show in an hour. Cum online and say hi to me.

I just returned from Phoenix and I did get some photo's of me and Queen! Here is me and Queen on June 9th, Photo. Here is Photo 2. Photo 3.

Ariel got back from Vacation the other day and she had a show today and also has one Sunday and Monday. Check the schedule for the shows. It's on my main schedule.

Ok, just finished my show and I am encoding it right now to put it on video on Demand. So if you did happen to miss tonights show it will be up around 9pm PST (midnight EST)..

I've been watching the Funeral of Ronald Regan in Washington today. Always so sad when someone dies. I don't think there is really quit anything a person can say to someone who has just lost one they love. No words could do. Not really something any of us can prevent anyway. As hard as we might try. I didn't do hardly anything today except clean and computer work. I did go by the store and get a few things. I can't eat sweets lately without getting really bad dizzy. So I am cutting that and eating a lot healthier (I have been for the last few weeks anyway). When I eat healthy I don't feel so..... awful.

I'm just being impatient while I wait to move. I called a transport place and they are picking up Nico on June 30!!! Gosh, I can't wait to see him. Last time I seen him he was a month old. I have a show tomorrow night (Wednesday)at 10pm EST (7pm PT). I'll exercise Nude and all that good stuff. I was on cloud nine earlier after I talked to the breeder of Nico and the transport people. At least I feel like it's getting close.

My show tonight was really good. You should have been there, "tisk, tisk". At least it felt good to me.:) I fuck that big black dildo like a man was fucking me from behind. I also done some nude weight lifting. I will have this weeks schedule up tonight.

I can barley walk tonight. I did cardio on the stepper at the gym for 30 minutes then I did a nude workout for my show tonight online. I am not usually this sore but that tells me how long I've put off doing legs. I've been talking with one of my Best Friends from School jr High and high school. Her name is Bambi. Yes, that is her real name. You know I remember asking her that when I first meet her. Me, her and April became really good Friends when we moved to FT. Polk, LA back in 89 or was that 88, i think it was 89. Anyway, it's good to know she hasn't really changed all that much. She still her self from when we were 13. Oh bummer, my birthday is this month. God, I'm going to be saying goodbye to my 20's forever, never again to see them. Well thank god I have friends I'm in contact with who are growing older to!

I have a show tomorrow evening. Take a look at the schedule at the top of the main members page. I'll do a nude workout and chat with you all. So be there.:)

Happy Memorial day. I have been needing a big cock but beside that nothing new. I bench pressed with my brother yesterday and I benched 160, damn that was a good burn! My boobs were so pumped! I'll do legs on Wednesday We will be closing on the new home down here the first week of July, So no moving till July. It will only take a couple days and then I'll have the new cams setup in my home there, in July. But for now we and the cams will be in Las Vegas. The new home is comming along. They have the drywall up and all now. Looking good! can't wait, I'll have voyeur cams in the Barn, Kitchen/living room and bedroom/bath. You guys will love it.

I've been so turned on lately. I need some guy to come over and suck on these tits while his dick is driving hard and fast into me. That slick cock sheethed up inside so deep that I orgasm while he drives into me again and again.

gosh, I am in a mood tonight. Wrote a friend and told her I do more then web design on the net. A friend from long ago when I was in school. Anyway, I get tired of "hiding". I know most people won't accept what I do for a living weather it be dancing or Adult website. Most people lump dancers or women that do Adult stuff into one catagory. Well hey, I'm a little different and I don't go around fucking different guys. That is a very good thing since I can be safe assured I don't have any STD's or AIDS! Plus, most of the dancers like to party and fuck off. Nop, I go home and decorate my home or be with my animals. I don't dress like I'm a umm "dancer" or maybe "ho" is the word. Sorry but when you see a cop on the street you know he's a cop right. Well if a girl is dressed like a Ho then what do you think when she's on the street? If you dress in the uniform........ yea. My opnion, "there are times to dress that way, but you can be very sexy and look like a diamond with nice clothes. Why am i rambling? I have no clue but I wanted to.

Gosh, I miss my Queenie! Seems like her being away so long I don't have her anymore. Can't wait to move down to Phoenix so I can have her live with me. My own little farm. I am interested in taking up some horticulture. My sex drive is make me throb between my legs. Maybe that is the romance Novels, sometimes it's hard to tell which. For memorial day I'm going to see my Brotha! Ok, my real brother. Yes I like making fun of those damn slang words. Thank god we will have people to do stuff with. I was busy today, I got down on my hands and knees and washed my floors in the creases.

Hey you all. I'm in my chatroom and need some company. I know it's not scheduled but it's the best time to chat when nothing is scheduled.:) I'm eating good and have lost. I'm beeing doing the stepper and that really gets you working. If you like to read like me try out the Author "Laura Kinsale", she writes some very good Historic Romance. Makes the center of my body pulse with need.:)

I've been eating very good and lost five pounds. I do the stepper five days a week and am watching my diet. Hopefully by the time Memorial day weekend arrives I'll weigh around 138. That is my ideal weight but I would like to hit 135 by the time mid June rolls around.

I started my trim down diet yesterday. Has anyone ever had that adkins drink? Geez, taste like shit! I would much rather have my egg whites mixed with cream of wheat. So much better. Someone else can have that high fat. I'll stick with my carbs and low fat protein. I can think better that way.

Well I ended up returning home from Phoenix yesterday. It's been wendy so we couldn't fly back. I am so glad that we are moving to Arizona, my brother lives there and we will have someone to do things with. Why am I glad to be moving you say? Well for one thing most people here are very unsocial, unfriendly and downright taxing! I loath Las Vegas anymore. There is nothing to do here (only if your only thing to do in Life is Party). Not mine! Not only are people here to party, do drugs and just be idiots to say the very last of some who think those are good qualities. Not bad but you know, there is a lot more to life. I've meet the worst people here. Even people who pretend to be religious here seem to have some kind of Mental issues going on. But maybe that is all religious people, because there do seem to be quit a lot of wars that stem from just that! I'm rambling. I better go before I say to very much then.:)

I went to Arizon this past weekend and checked on Queenie. She is so much happier at this new place. They give her a lot of attention. I will be posting my shows for this weekend so just look at the schedule at the top of the main members page.

OK, ok, ok. I have to post this. I thought it so very funny, I was laughing till I cryed. It's not making fun of God or anything just the fact that people go way to far, lol.. Hilarous!

Dr. Laura Schlessinger is a radio personality who dispenses advice to

people who call in to her radio show. Recently, she said that, as an

observant Orthodox Jew, homosexuality is an abomination according to

Leviticus 18:22 and cannot be condoned under any circumstance. The

following is an open letter to Dr. Laura penned by an east coast

resident, which was posted on the Internet. It's funny, as well as

informative:



Dear Dr. Laura:



Thank you for doing so much to educate people regarding God's Law.I

have learned a great deal from your show, and try to share that

knowledge with as many people as I can. When someone tries to defend

the homosexual lifestyle, for example, I simply remind them that

Leviticus 18:22 clearly state it to be an abomination. End of debate. I

do need some advice from you, however, regarding some of the other

specific laws and how to follow them:



When I burn a bull on the altar as a sacrifice, I know it creates a pleasing odor for the Lord - Lev.1:9. The problem is my neighbors. They

claim the odor is not pleasing to them. Should I smite them?



I would like to sell my daughter into slavery, as sanctioned in Exodus

21:7. In this day and age, what do you think would be a fair price for

her?



I know that I am allowed no contact with a woman while she is in her

period of menstrual uncleanliness - Lev.15:19- 24. The problem is, how

do I tell? I have tried asking, but most women take offense.



Lev. 25:44 states that I may indeed possess slaves, both male and

female, provided they are purchased from neighboring nations. A friend

of mine claims that this applies to Mexicans, but not Canadians. Can

you clarify? Why can't I own Canadians?



I have a neighbor who insists on working on the Sabbath. Exodus 35:2

clearly states he should be put to death. Am I morally obligated to

kill him myself?



A friend of mine feels that even though eating shellfish is an

abomination - Lev. 11:10, it is a lesser abomination than

homosexuality. I don't agree. Can you settle this?



Lev. 21:20 states that I may not approach the altar of God if I have a

defect in my sight. I have to admit that I wear reading glasses. Does

my vision have to be 20/20, or is there some wiggle room here?



Most of my male friends get their hair trimmed, including the hair

around their temples, even though this is expressly forbidden by Lev.

19:27. How should they die?



I know from Lev. 11:6-8 that touching the skin of a dead pig makes me

unclean, but may I still play football if I wear gloves?



My uncle has a farm. He violates Lev. 19:19 by planting two different

crops in the same field, as does his wife by wearing garments made of

two different kinds of thread (cotton/polyester blend). He also tends

to curse and blaspheme a lot. Is it really necessary that we go to all

the trouble of getting the whole town together to stone them? -

Lev.24:10-16. Couldn't we just burn them to death at a private family

affair like we do with people who sleep with their in-laws? (Lev. 20:14)



I know you have studied these things extensively, so I am confident you

can help. Thank you again for reminding us that God's word is eternal

and unchanging.



Your devoted

I'm considering doing the MS. Olympia Natural. It's in Novemember. If not this years I'll do it next. After my Move I'll see where i'm at. Even if I started late 4 months would give me plenty of time. Anywho, I did do cardio today. I also washed windows and sprayed the house for bugs.

I had my show a Noon today. Not much else happening. I will do cardio on my treadmill tonight. Trying to eat healthy but I do love my sweets. Have to have something ever other day.

My show tomorrow is at 3pm EST (Noon PT), just a reminder. Ariel had a show this morning but I didn't watch it, since I had house to clean. I went and seen Van Helsing and it was ok. The first part was some bad acting though. Great special effects. Talked to my Mom today.

Does anyone else hear that clock ticking? That clock that says the years are rolling by. What in the hell is going on with that?! The never ending Question of life. In the end we are tryng to stay young, (eat healthy, go to the gym and still die). I read that on a bumper sticker but it said it all. Yet there are still all those old people who will never get a clue to anything. I found that knowledge is power. I've known so stupid people in my life and they don't want to learn either. That is the really sad part. I was standing in a shopping center and looking at all the people passing me and started thinking of how many people I've past that are dead now, and I don't even know it. Sad thing, but then I moved on and life had to go on. It has to. I don't remember anything before I was born, so I'm not so worried of dying, just leaving people behind. Isn't that the brunt of it. I don't know. Just something to think on, just don't dwell. May not be good for your mental health.

Lordy, Lordy, Lordy... I had a show tonight and used my Dildo "Named Rocko". I think I just about had the best orgasm I had in a very long time. Not sure what is up with my hormons but I'm having a surge of them again lately. Drives me up the wall with wanting a big ____ ! You can guess.:) I've been watching HGTV and DIY. Trying to figure out how to install my own sprinkler system in my yard. I do believe in the end I'll have to hire out for that. Boo!

I redid my schedule for the week and I have a show Tuesday, Thursday at 9pm est and then Saturday at 3pm EST. Hope that works well for the most part.

Tomorrow night i have a show. I'll bring out some play toys and we can all have some fun. Not much happening. I am starting a nice workout plan and better eating. No more pancakes either, bla.

I had a long day. I went and seen Queen and she was so dirty, so I gave her a bath and she wasn't very cooperative. I gave myself a shower as much as I did her. By the time I was finished I wasn't happy at all. The new house is comming along. I have to go to my brothers tomorrow to help him fix his computer. I'll be chatting and on line monday just to have some fun. I think those kind are the best.

Ariel has a show friday. I posted that yesterday, just check the schedule. I updated the members area with some hard core video clips and a couple of my shows I've done recently. What else, I have been reading a good book. I couldn't get into it at first but it is getting interesting. Although there are a lot of word I probably don't pronounce in my head correctly. The book is called "Kushiel's Avatar" by Jacqueline Carey, almost halfway through. Pretty good once you get past the first few chapters. I guess there is a first book to it, haven't read that one.

Well I have been cleaning today. That and doing a little packing at a time. My new home with have the camera's in a great location for the voyeur in us all. Plus my treadmill will be out back so I can run in the morning and watch the horses play! Of course there will be a camera so you can peak! I feel as if I'm playing the waiting game and my new place isn't getting done nearly as fast as I'd like. On another note, life is going by way to fast. Doesn't make sense at all but what does?

Tonight show is at 9pm EST (6pm PT). Tomorrow show is at 1pm EST (10am PT). I'm having it early on Sunday because everything closes earlier. I feel like having a party for my show, it's SATURDAY! yipee.:) Come by and say hi to me. I love it when I see you all.

I'm posting this past months shows I've recorded. So keep checking and you can view them on demand (in the members area).

I filmed me lunging queen this past Sunday and I will post it here. I just wanted to get some video of her for my family. I know a lot of you like seeing me doing my everyday stuff other then being nude.:) Here is me lunging Queen. The people had their horse out in the arena so I couldn't do it in the arena.

I went to Phoenix, Az monday night. Had someone pick up my Horse Queen and take her down. I meet them at the boarding Facility I'm keeping her at for training. Drove through the night. Meet her off the trailer at 6am in the morning. She will be evaluated for jumping and also trained acording to her age. That way I can move and not have to worry about her training and care till I'm there. I seen my home while there, they are about to start the stucco of the house! Yipee. Can't wait.

You ever have a day were you got up and it was just a bad day? Today was it for me. I am posting a new show schedule and will have my shows during the weekends. The other girls I have on the site do a lot during the week so I'll just do mine on weekends and you can have the pleasure of the others the rest of the week.:) Ariel usually has her's on Friday's anyway.

The weather is bad here lately, windy! Cold tonight to. Hopefully it clearns up sooner then later.

I've been packing, slowly. Can't wait for the move! The new camera setup will be great. You'll be able to see me and the horses in the barn when i train them. I think we will try to make it down in the next couple of weeks to make sure they are on the ball and getting things done. Reading, packing, cleaning and training. Not much else. Oh yea, bookie and nemo are doing great. They are my brat boys. They gang up on me when I try to read in the evening and chew my ears off (expecially bookie!).. Makes me laugh silly.

Everyone seems to be on Vacation. I've been trying to walk/jog 4 days a week. It helps but my diet needs to be better. Called my Mom last night and she is doing well, trying to sell her home. Not to much going on. I redid this weeks schedule and will have a show Wednesday at 11pm est. Cum and say hi.:) I hate watching the news. Bush is on a holy war just like any religious person and is going after all the adult programming etc. He needs to concentrate on the violence and problems with this contry. Not what HE thinks is a sinful, god made us naked for a reason, nudity and sex will be around longer then he may realize.:) Hasn't it always? Without it we would not have very much reproduction and our species would cease to exist. Bush has his priorities messed up. Maybe he needs Viargra, someone should recommend it to him.

I went and seen my new colt Nico yesterday! He's so pretty and a little spunky guy. Here is one with me feeding him and one of him and his mom. Nico, Nico with Mom. Oh, another one with Nico and Mom.

Not doing much but the usual. I am going to start jogging. That always help me with losing weight. We are going to see Nico on Saturday and will be back that same day. Ariel has 2 more shows between now and Sunday then I'll be updating the schedule again for next week.

I've been training queen and trying to get her better able to ride. Trying to do my walks and get work done on here. This weekend sometime we are going to see Nico my Friesian Horse. I'll have to get tons of photo's to hold me over till I see him next. I'm slowly packing for the move at the End of June. Just got my winter clothes done and some sheets and blankets we don't use at the moment.

I have my show right now so cum on in!

Ariel had a show this morning. I have a show tomorrow so just check out the online schedule. It's been raining here. I get to go see Nico Next weekend. I'll take a lot of Photo's of him. Can't wait. I haven't been doing anything just because of the rain for the past two days.

I posted a new online show schedule today, for this week. I'm around. Just trying to exercise and keep busy.

I have a show tomorrow night at 10pm est. Come and say hi. I have been working out and walking 2 miles 4 days out of the week. So the weight is comming off.

Here is a little something that I hope is true, just click here to see the Rainbow bridge.

The vet called a little while ago. Barty died of heart failure. Nothing that could have been done for him, not even medications. I am glad it was something that he didn't have to suffer much over. I feel his lose, although some might see him as just an animal, arn't we all. You will be missed my barty man. Bookie will miss trying to dominate someone as you always let him. Nemo will be missing being chased by the cat that would jump him. I will be missing the little guy trying to rub my hand while I type on the keyboard. Sorry you had to leave. You were loved much in the short time you were here on earth.

While I was vaccuming my carpet downstiars this morning I noticed my cat Barty hadn't moved. I thought he was in a deep sleep is all. An hour goes by and we get ready to head out. I seen barty's feet in the same spot as he had been. I didn't expect anything at all to be wrong. He died sometime during the night. What happened? I took him in for a biopsy, after I finished crying for him. Why hadn't I checked on him last night and made sure he was feeling ok? Barty didn't deserve death.

I have a show and I'm wearing some black lace. Cum and watch, it in a little over five minutes.

I have an online show tonight at 10pm est, come and say hi and lets do something fun.:)

Ok, I took a photo of a head shot last night before my show in my costume. Kinda fun dressing up like that. Here is the photo, i got a couple actually, pretty hard to try to take photo's of yourself! I call it the Goddess , photo 2.:) I know it's a goofy thing.

Hear ye, Hear ye! I'm a Roman Princess tonight during my show. Once you see me you'll know why.:)

We went down to Phoenix on Sunday and got a few things done that were needing attention on our new home. I have to apply to get permits for my barn so Now I could kick myself for not taking the plans with me. I posted this weeks show schedule this morning. Ariel should be sending me her Thursday and she usually has hers on Friday or Saturdays. Just keep checking it will be up there at the end of the week. I am glad to be home. Two days isn't long but it sure did seem it.

I was sooo turned on this morning when I did my show. I got out my dildo with the clit vibrator on it and used that. What a good Fantasy and orgasm I had! You just don't know, sometimes plastic is really good.:)

I wasn't feeling well at all yesterday but today i'm much better. The Vet came down and gave Queen all her shots not long ago. That sure is EXPENSIVE! They carge that high fee for comming to your barn. I really need to get this house cleaned. I've been reading books a lot and have been letting the house slip a little. Not much though.

I have a show tomorrow at 8pm est.

I had Gizzy take some Photo's with me and Queen yesterday morning. She will be two next month so still has more growing to do. She will Grow till she is around 4 years old. She is almost 16.1 hands tall right now. Queen March 12, Queen March 12 B.

Gosh, I need sex. I need to go have gizzy fuck me, NOW!

I had to go to Phoenix this past weekend. I sure was glad to be home on Sunday. The trip wore me out. Every time we fly I'm tense the whole way and by the time I get to our destination i'm exhausted. I do try to relax. It was very hard to when we hit storm clouds on Friday. Hit a serious down draft and my stomach was in my mouth. It was only for a second but that was enough. I was about to kiss the pavment once we landed. I rode queen again today. she's acting up this week. I have a show tomorrow morning so come and see me! it's at 1:30pm EST (10:30am PST)..

I got my show from yesterday posted on video on demand. I updated the site with quit a few things, if you got my newsletter they are in there.. I've been somewhat busy, where does time go?

I'm going to post a photo of my new colts Sir, he will look a lot like him when he's grown. Omega's father.

God, one of those days. The kind where your in the house with someone your just not getting along with and it's raining so your kinda STUCK! *(^&%$#%$!!$^%^%@!!)

I have an early show tomorrow (Tuesday), 10:30am pst ((1:30pm est).. I think I'm nice and horny, god i need something.

Oh I have great news! First of all I'll be moving into my own Horse Property in June. This house I bought a couple years ago turned out to be the best investment I have made! Sold it to some California Investor. Anyway, I just bought a Friesian Colt that will be comming to live with us in July, Queen will now have a friend to. That is why i've been searching for a new wireless system, my new house will be single story so I'll have a voyeur cam in my bath, kitchen/living room and barn. Oh, and his name is Omega I'm linking a photo of him, he's was just born a few days ago! Omega He's an investment and I'll show him in halter and stuff, when he's older I can stud him out for a fee.

My horse don't smell like a horse. I gave her a good bath scrub down today. I do that once a week anyway and she is nice and clean. I'm reading a book called "The Patient" by Michel Palmer, it's very good. Not much happening today. My show tuesday is at 1:30pm EST, don't forget!

I"m scheduling a lot more shows for around 1:30pm EST (10:30pm PST).. So Tuesday and Wednesday I have shows at that time. Then the weekends it will most likely be a combination of a late show and early. Anyone have times they like best just write me and I'll see if I can accomidate you..

I'm still hunting for a good wireless system that will hold up to 3 or 4 camera's. I've just been working on the computer a lot and I need to get back with the Photoshop stuff scoots sent to me. I've been so busy I haven't had a lot of time to go through the rest of it.

I had my show at 2pm est today. It was fun and I like the lighting at that time of day. so I'm going to schedule a couple of those early shows a couple days a week. I have it posted on the video on demand.

I did reschedule my show for tomorrow at 2:00pm EST, I am feeling better then I didi a few hourse ago at least. A little rest sometimes does a world of good. Anyone have any idea's or suggestions for my show tomorrow? let me know! Anyone who misses the show tomorrow can watch it on Replay on demand in the members are tomorrow night.

God, I think I'm comming down with the flu. Not sure. Hopefully whatever this is don't last long. Makes me feel like crap.. I guess it didn't help standing in the wind today training queen then it drop about 15 degrees while I was out there.

It's been raining since friday and everything is wet and soggy. I've been working around the house today. I think I'll settle down and read tonight.. Tomorrow night at 10:30pm EST I got a show, be there.:)

I'm in the process of finding new wireless transmitter and receiver for the camcorders. That way I can position them in all the main rooms for a more voyeur affect again. If anyone knows of anything that will send up to 1000 feet away and that still is at reasonable cost let me know.. Besides that I went and spent a couple hourse talking to an old Friends parents today. It was so great to see them again after 13 years.

It's raining, bla. Makes a person want to stay home and not go anywhere. I should run a venus shake your booty tryout show. Have girls tryout just for the hell of it. Just because.. No reason what so ever. Can you tell I don't really have much to say? :) Can't think of anything interesting besides the sexual fantasies I have daily about men with big dicks.

I hope you all caught Ariels show last night! I have one tomorrow night. Cum and see me.:)

I fucked my dildo during my show last night and still don't feel like my thirst has been quenched. I need a real long dick to make me quit wanting. Oh, I'm so happy today, just thought I'd say that. I could do the jig all day long.:) I LOVE YOU WORLD!

I didn't work Queen this weekend so I'll need to get down there first thing tomorrow and work her. I'll have my new schedule posted tonight for my online shows. i've been so horny you just don't know. I need fucked!

I road queenie again today, she is getting better and better. She's so big to. I don't do anything but walk her around with me on her back. She needs to get use to a rider and also develope more muscle since she's still growing. So the next 6 months will be walking only.. I hope you all like the sex cam girls I just added to the site.

Not much going on this week. I just Just updated the site with a bunch of new girls that do shows from their home. I also encoded and posted my show from sunday for playback. I hope you all enjoy all the new things.

Ok I got the video we did of us breaking her encoded if you want to watch the video, breaking part 1, part 2..

I sat on queen for the first time today. She did wonderful, of course I had my trainer helping. Here are a few photo's, she has gotten so big since I showed her this past June.. Queen 1, Queen 2, Queen 3, Queen 4

I joined a class website a year and a half ago trying to find some of my old Friends I went to school with. I gave up after about six months and haven't been checking up lately. Well yesterday I got a letter in the mail from one of my best friends I haven't seen since I was 16! She found my married name and got in contact with me. I called her last night and we talked for a good 20 minutes. She's got a little boy and everything. I am so glad that she was able to find me. Because she wasn't listed at the time I was looking and I never could find anyone! Yipeeee! I'm thrilled! We were a group of army brats so everyone moved and just lost contact. Girls are hard to find since they change names when they marrie. She has been in contact with our other friend and I am waiting for her to call me now.

I got a couple of Photo's of Queen today, she is two months shy of being two years old, click here.

I fucked my rocko dildo for some of my show tonight. Boy, If I could just find a man hung like that then we could do some serious fuck shows. Makes me shiver thinking of a cock like that.:) I have been running on my treadmill and dieting as best I can.

I spent 3 hours working with Queen today. Training, then a bath, then the rest of the grooming process. I have a show in an hour and a half and will start getting ready for that now. I'll make sure it's recorded and posted for on Demand Viewing.

Tomorrow I have an early show (4:30pm EST), so those of you who don't watch the supperbowl come and join me..

I finished Reading Angels and Demons by Dan Brown at the beginning of the week. I was recommended (by someone in my chat) "The da vinci Code" by the same author and read reviews on it. Figured I'd get the one that came first then go on to it. What a good book "Angels and Demons" came to be! I'll wait till "The da vinci code" comes to paperback. Now I'm on "Digital Fortress" by Dan brown, not as good tough.. I was hunting around amazon for books and came across The Illuminatus! Trilogy : The Eye in the Pyramid, The Golden Apple, Leviathan by Robert Anton Wilson. Really like this kind of writing. I'll have to put my two cents in here once I'm done reading it.:) Oh, I went to the Equine affair an spent a day at that. Got back early this morning. Was fun, the horse world is really not a very big group of people.. Thought It would be a bigger event then it was.

I ate like crap today, that is all there is to say about that. Ariel has a show tomorrow and I will post my show schedule on Saturday. I posted a video on demand of my Sunday show.. I also updated of a new girl and her hard body..

Meal 1 at 8am I ate oatmeal with a protein drink

Meal 2 at 11am I ate some tuna with rice and green beans

Meal 3 at 1pm I ate potatoes with chicken breast

Meal 4 at 4pm I ate some more Potatoes with chicken breast and asparagus

Well I had fun in my shows both last night and today. Did a little of everything. This week I do get to go to a horse Expo and I'm going to attend some of the clinics. That will be fun. I think I'll run on my treadmill in a bit. My diet has been doing ok. I really get tired of writing what I eat but I will once a week or so.

My show is a little over 30 minutes away. I will lift a little weights.

I made a new entrance page (thanks to scoots help!). You can see it here http://www.landofvenus.com/muscles/

God I've been horny the past couple of days. I just need fucked. The tear your clothes off and fuck up against the wall, raw kind of sex. Banging me sensless. On another Note! I have been working on a new front page for the website and got that finished tonight. I have been getting some help by a guy name scoots. Thank you! Just had to put that, he's helped me and taken the time to write and help me out with techniques.

I'm not going to post everything and everytime I eat but I will post some of my meals. I try to eat 5 X a day. My fifth meal is a protein drink. I ate bran flakes and a protein drink for breakfast and three hours later I had tuna with brown rice, now I need to have something green like salad.

Meal 3 was not good for me but I wanted to get that thing out of my fridge before I was to far along in my diet. So I had the Stoffers fish with mac and cheese. It was a small serving and I don't feel like I cheated to bad. As long as I don't make it a habit.:)I've also been on the treadmill for 20-30 minutes every day. In the morning I take a Multi-Vitamin & Mineral supplement and Omega 3 Faty acid supplement (fish oil).

Oh yea, I have a online show tonight at 10pm est. So be there!

Meal 1 at 8:30am- I had bran flakes 1/2 cup with half of a banana and a protein drink.

Meal 2 at 11:30am- I had brown rice with Tuna

12:20pm Meal 2- Chicken breast with a little Potatoe

3pm Meal 3- Cream of Wheat with chicken

6pm Meal 4 - Rice with Tuna

9:30am Meal 1- I ate rice with tuna.

I'm starting my competition diet today. I ran 3 miles yesterday and feel great. So you can watch me slim down and cut up.:)

TGIF. I hope everyone had a good week. Ariel has another show tomorrow. I am not sure what I'll do this weekend. Besides have me show. I do need to clean some.

Ariel has a Show on Friday. She used anal beeds the other day, I'd have to buy very tinny one's since I'm not at all use to them..

I was going to have the guy that helped me with training queen break her but he wants me to move her to another place for that. So I am not going to have him help. I like the place I'm at and don't want to move. I'll be starting to break her myself for sure. The girl that also lives there breaks her own and will help if I need it. That will be enough for me.

I'm doing good workingout and all that. Not much new happening. Some stuff different day. Computer work and my online shows are fun. Just have to come up with something fresh and different to entertain.

all I've been thinking of is sex today. Oh god, oh yes, oh god... Can I please have my brain back...

I've been workingout and also working Queen, so I'm a little tired. I had an online show tonight for two hours and had a blast. I went to the IFA country store and bought a breast collar for the saddle. Make it from sliding around.

Man am I sore today! I've been working out a lot. Today I did Lunges and all that goes along with doing my legs. I spent my evening reading since I don't have much energy or strength in my legs to walk all that much. I did have a show earlier tonight and it was great fun. Ariel has an Online show tomorrow at 3pm EST (Noon PST).. Not much happening right now. I ordered some bra's and Panties from herroom dot com. I was in need of some good shock absorber kind and that is what I got.:)

I really need to find a man to have a show with him on line. Nice Hard body to, yum. I went and trained queen at Noon. I'm going to head to the gym sometime this evening. I am going to the Equine Affaire at the end of this month. It's in California at the fairgrounds. I Can't wait!

I just posted a new show schedule for this week. My brother is leaving in the Am and I will have a show tomorrow night at 9pm EST (6pm pst).. I workedout yesterday and today and will keep it up! I'm going to be more dedicated about that this year.

I am planning to workout more this year. That was one of the top picks for new years resolutions on Fox News. I don't think i have any others. I would like to compete in a fitness comp this spring sometime. I'll have to see how good this diet does me.

Happy New Year! I'm tired today. I drank three glasses of wine last night and that got me drunk. I haven't drank anything since Ariel Visited me. I puked up my guts that time. I don't like to drink all that much anyway and don't plane to for another year.